A week ago I was barely surviving in this city, and now I'm truly living.
Thank you. Unintentionally, you brought me back to life.
But I will never let you know that. I'm too proud.

I'm in an empty city, with empty people faking the celebration of an empty holiday of chocolate egg shells and non-existent bunnies.

God, how I wish I could just be home today.

It didn't really hit me until tonight how far away I am again... I guess, I've been trying to avoid being truly alone these past few days, and now, no matter what I do to keep my mind off things, is not working... I'm alone. Again. In a city full of lies ( Read more... )

"She blinked back tears and felt her throat constrict. Soon her whole body was shaking as badly as it ever had, but this was no transformation-related sickness. She was wrong. She was not strong. Her heart was breaking, she could feel it- nothing would ever be the same. Her eyes watered, and she knew if she did not stop herself, she would soon be ( Read more... )

I'm finally taking a trip to visit my past, to figure out how it will belong in my future ( Read more... )

I am in-between. I will always be in-between.
In-between, that is a constant state of space.
It doesn't matter how much I try to fight each move and change, I am in-between.
Many know, but barely few understand.

I am in-between. I will always be in-between.
In-between, that is an inconstant state of place.
I find pieces of my soul in each new ( Read more... )

Something is missing. I don't know what... but I know something is missing.




Just wish I knew what.

There is no excuse for the way that I've behaved, and there aren't enough words for explaining these regrets.

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UGH!

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Shit! I've made so many wrong decisions, even if they were paired with the best intentions, that I just want to hide away from everyone.

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I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

And today, I'm just as confused as I've been these past two weeks...

I sliced the palm of my hand open two nights ago, and it doesn't let me forget...

...that moments of unexpected pain have to come with the healing process.