Comments | bete_lumineux: Double you tea eightch

bete_lumineux

Double you tea eightch

Nov 14, 2005 11:10

What the hell am I doing? I'm attending community college, fighting to get into an art school via scholarships and grants. I am unemployed, I have no idea where my art is going. I just had sushi for breakfast and had to beg money from my boyfriend to get food from a vending machine... and will have to soon as well so I can pay toll to get back ( Read more... )

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3appleshigh November 14 2005, 11:37:15 UTC

yum. sushi.

ick on the rest. :(

bete_lumineux November 14 2005, 23:53:16 UTC

It was Safeway sushi.

3appleshigh November 15 2005, 10:02:05 UTC

i did not even know safeway had sushi.

bete_lumineux November 15 2005, 11:16:39 UTC

*shivers*

Yes. Yes, it does.

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_paper_wings_ November 14 2005, 12:47:01 UTC

I feel the same way...
because I accidentally spent a large chunk of my scholarship money on Mongolian Grill and fashionable clothing.

So, Steph, the stupid MF, will be praying for lots of christmas money!

bete_lumineux November 14 2005, 23:52:52 UTC

See... that's what sucks. I don't even get xmas munnies! Stupid dead people... sheesh.

laberinto November 14 2005, 12:48:47 UTC

god I feel the same way, no job, no money, want a chance to do what you want to do and on top of that you have to keep making good art.

bete_lumineux November 14 2005, 17:32:26 UTC

It's so hard! It's so worth it but... it's so hard. At it's worst I forget that what I'm doing is meaningful and what I want to do; that I never played well in regular society's play-yard. At best is when I let that feeling lift me up instead of bring me down and get to work.

c2tink November 14 2005, 16:38:09 UTC

oh, you're the mayor? i'm a fellow consitutient of crazy town, and i've got a few issues to discuss ...

where the hell is all the money and appreciation? why is there so much anger and stress?! bah!

anyway, i'm feeling it. good luck in crazy town. someday i plan to relocate to whimsical-yet-productive-money-having town. wanna come along?

bete_lumineux November 14 2005, 17:27:08 UTC

Oh sweet baby jeebus, can I please??

incoralblue November 14 2005, 17:51:04 UTC

which art school?

well, I think on the brightside, if there should be one, you're not working for someone you totally despise. Or doing a job you don't want to be doing in the first place. I know plenty of people who planned all these big things: working as a magazine editor, becoming a teacher, blah blah and after they graduate from college they end up working for H&M.

And remember "Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around"

I wish you the best.
xx

bete_lumineux November 14 2005, 23:52:09 UTC

Thanks, Ruf. I haven't talked to you in so long.

I know what you mean about career plans though. One of my first jobs in San Francisco was an in-store reproduction artist for Tower Records. Whenever we were going through a hiring process we'd all joke that only the applicants who'd passed the bar exam were eligible to be hired as stock help.