117 today.

Wowwww. I'm so fat it's not even funny. 119.5. Seriously. It's disgusting. I love how looking back on all these posts I was supposed to lose weight this summer, and that never happened. I'm disgusting myself just thinking about it. But today is the first day of the plan, and I'm going to stick to it! I need to lose weight for the Lady Gaga concert ( Read more... )

Here's my plan for the next few days: Slim fast for breakfast and lunch, making one shake last 4 hours or so until it's time for the next one. So one shake at 8, one shake at 12, at 4 eat a whole bag of spinach, then before dinner take a laxative and eat a small portion of everything so mom and dad see that I'm eating. That way I am taking in ( Read more... )

119. At my high. I need to go back down. Starting over again. My parents are watching my eating habits anyways, so I should be going down. No more binging...

117, aka fat as fuck. Already ruined the plan by B/P'ing on PB sandwiches, oatmeal, and eggs for breakfast. I plan to fast for the rest of the day until dinner and drink tons of water. I feel like a fucking blimp. I hope to be down to 114 by the weekend. I really need to starve to get there, and be serious about it. I'm starting right now, and I ( Read more... )

idk how much i was today - didn't measure. I've decided to take this day by day. One fore week til Japan and I want to take this seriously. Tomorrow I'm going to starve until dinner, which I'll then purge. No binging, and only 300 cal before dinner.

116.5.

UGH! STILL 117! So gross... Although I did wake up dehydrated. i certainly didn't drink enough water and consumed too much sodium. I'm gonna drink a shit ton of water today and hope the bloating goes down... I'm planning on going to Jazzerise tonight. Maybe I'll try to alternate drinking a cup of green tea and a cup of water every hour and see if ( Read more... )

Still 117, but I feel good about the progress I'll be making soon. I had an hour long Jazzercise class yesterday, and I worked out this morning (35 min/320 cal/100 fat cal). I will binge once today - purging immediately, then I will purge dinner. Otherwise, I'm back to fasting. I believe in myself. I did it before, I can do it again. I just need to ( Read more... )

I am LIVID! UGH! Why do I always do this to myself?! I'm back up to 117, of course. I'm hoping some of it is period bloat that will wear off, but this is truly disgusting. I'm taking it upon myself to really kill it this week. NO buying binge food. NO binging more than once a day, if at all. ALWAYS drink water. I will get back to 113 by Friday if ( Read more... )