I don't use this journal anymore.

Sorry people.

I'm only keeping it for sentimental reasons.

Fuck.

What do you do when you have nothing to smile about any more?  When even your best friend can't bring a true smile to your face, not because of anything they lack, but because you honest to god don't care about life anymore?

Life is looking up. I thought it was before and then it crashed again, when Kristen left. I'm trying not to jinx it this time. But, I'm smiling, I'm smiling for no reason ad it feels good. To know that I don't need to be in a relationship to make me happy. I still think about her, but it doesn't upset me. I know that she is okay and I know ( Read more... )

Why? Why does this happen? I was doing so good, I didn't think about her today, I really didn't. And when I started thinking about having to check my myspace she popped into my head and I was fine. But I came home and there was a message from her ( Read more... )

I thought I was over it.. I really did. I was so happy today. I just can't stop thinking about her. Why is it so hard to let her go? Why am I so happy during the day but by night I cry myself to sleep? Why does it hurt this bad ( Read more... )

Why can't I let her go? Why has this gotten me so upset? I've never reacted like this, I've always been good at letting people go. Why is she the exception, when she should be the rule. I've cried myself into a frenzy and made myself sick. Now I spend every 5 minutes running to the toilet. I didn't even know it was possible to cry yourself ( Read more... )

"Love is like a baby, it has to grow and mature before it is ready to take on the world ( Read more... )

Why do I let this happen to me?  Why do I give my heart so easily just to have it stepped on?  I know it sounds stupid but DAMNIT!!!!!  I'm only seventeen, there are other fishies in the sea, I'm to young to know what love is.. Yeah, that is what you think ( Read more... )

I chopped off my hair.  OMG!  12 inches donated to locks of love.  It feels weird but I feel good about myself.  I like it.

So, I decided to start using my LJ again.

Right now life is going okay-ish.

I've got to go to Warped Tour and spend a lot of time with Rhianon.

But Kristen, this girl I like a lot, is leaving for Connecticut.  I'm really upset, but I figured that I will get through it eventually.  Hopefully, my friends will help me through it... hopefully.