So I am desperatly trying to get school work done. but the more and more I sit here and stare at my wall and get distracted by downloading more music, the more I dont get down and the more anixety attacks I get when I realize I have to work the next five days in a row. I am very crazy ( Read more... )

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i hate my life. i tried to ratalize it today. i tried to tell myself all i needed to do was just breathe. that it was okay that i have absolutly no love life. that all my friends suck. that right now school bores me, my classes suck ( Read more... )

i feel soo silly. i hate that this is still bugging me. i hate that i couldnt get any of my school work done last night because i couldnt sit still for a second. i am at a total lost when it comes to boys ( Read more... )

he didnt call. i dont know why i bother to get upset, its just routine. i dont know what else i can do ( Read more... )

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i am nervous to write about him. my stomach hurts. my knees felt weak when i saw him last night...it was all too weird that someone that hot wants to hang out with me ( Read more... )

maybe this is because i just took my french midterm i dont know....but i am regardless very happy today. i think it just might be because halloween is my favorite holiday. i am going to be a pirate. i wanted to be rainbow brite but alas i am too poor to buy the stuff to make the costume. i need to get off my ass and start stripping, every day i ( Read more... )

i dont know. i remember back when i was happy i said to myself...i understand it now....whenever you are down about life, all you have to do is find out what you need to do to make yourself happy. it seemed soo simple. i also had this idea about relationships too....all you need to do is talk, and even at the tender age of 21, i know that is lot ( Read more... )

today was overall a much better day. i went to standard in the moring to talk to dolly, but she wasnt there. but i did get to shoot the shit with Mara and Jeff for a bit. at one point i looked up and mina was there. we just looked at each other and then turned away. i tried to be a good sport about things and say bye but she wouldnt even look ( Read more... )