i think the reason things have changed for livejournal is because i've changed as a person. three years ago, i was a very self-centered child who felt that i needed to vent my thoughts and be heard... and that when i had any problem (from family stuff to the stupidest things) the whole world needed to know and feel simpathy for me...

I think i've ( Read more... )

i am so tired... i don't think i've worked this hard in my life... well at least in almost a year... ba-jesus. i'm exhausted ( Read more... )

I have NEVER been so angry before in my life.... i don't even care if anyone reads this ( Read more... )

 i'm almost gonna cry thinking about how i have to get up not in 6.45 hours... but 5.45 hours... stupid daylight savings. i don't know why i'm up so late, but i can't sleep. i never can after i close. actually, i think its an insomnia thing. last night i couldn't fall asleep either ( Read more... )

 sometimes i wonder how people forget that my life is different from them... i guess its almost human nature... our only reality is the one within our mind. so i guess i can see how.... i just wish they didn't do it so much with me... maybe then i would be understood more often ( Read more... )

 first off.... i'd like to ponder how someone could ever be a bulemic... all the wretching... it would make me sick. last night was the first night i've thrown up in god knows how long. i think three years at least, but 5 years at most.  but as i sat haunched over fighting to breathe, i was in complete dread ( Read more... )

 a couple months ago i did a "ten things i have to say to ten people" for myspace... i'm in that kind of mood now, so i'll do it here ( Read more... )

 So... new years!... oh god. i'm scared. what am i going to do? laura o said it best yesterday: "This is YOUR year. You're graduating--you have to make the most of it!"

'tis wise words... seriously... i've never been more scared of my future than right now. there's so much that is going to happen... so many big events that will shape my life... and ( Read more... )

The Ultimate 2007 SurveyYouDid your appearance change this year?::yeah... i cut my hair and dropped 2 sizes Did you grow emotionally?::idk. maybe. Did you improve at anything?::playing my guitar. Did you discover any new talents?::probably something obscure like pickle-fishing Did you dye your hair?::yeah. twice? Did you get any really cool ( Read more... )

So i'm in georgia right now... we just got here after a fourteen hour trip... so now we're chillin out... i'm waiting for kristen to finish writing in her journal so i can sleep. wonderful

stephy is awesome.

i decided that its impossible to block out the people who have had such an influence in my life--good and bad... so i'm gonna try... and deal ( Read more... )