why dont you just shoot me? it would be so much kinder........

[bethd91588]

sometimes it is extremely difficult to be one of few who still care and work hard only to be let down by others over and over again. its frustrating, depressing, and exhausting. im worried that the uncaring will eventually take me down with them because im becoming to tired to fight them anymore.

i dont know what to do........

Comments

[victoriousriot]

it's not that i don't care. in fact, i care quite a bit.

i've just been disappointed in certain things and it's made me think, well, if that's how things are going to be handled then why would i want to do this.

i'm over it now.
<3-victoria

[bethd91588]

did i say your name in this at all? its not about one person, its about the majority of people.

[elizabethbennet]

I say this as a friend and not as an instructor...kick their asses!!!

[cinderella2008]

wow, couldn't say it better

[bethd91588]

thanx kristin! thats some good advice.

[cinderella2008]

so from a general pint of view from what you said, although i have no idea what the story is, im sorry beth. i know how you feel. and i am not just saying that. but i am guessing this has to do with guard and although this probably doesn't mean much coming from a "freshmen" but i am so proud of you. so many people have left and yet you are still stronger then ever. you are excellent in skill and are fun to be around. you know when it is play time and time to be serious. you help people if they need it and try to make a good example. i experienced something today i had never experienced. the area above my heart was hurting really bad. this whole situation happened. i love you's were exchanged. i only half heartedly meant it because i as well as most other people are too yound to truly mean it, and he walked over me and well, broke my heart. never thought it could happen. so if you ever want to talk bd, i will listen. and you are strong so nothing will bring you down. it is like that retarded song says ::i won't go down with this ship

[sweet_whitelies]

mmm.. mmmm.... thought provoking.

[hmm_ranch]

i love beth d'ambra! =) lol u know it! talk 2 me woman! lol

[good_ole_swainy]

ahhh
my chemical romance....yes, that i one heck of an album!

-McSwain