this is hardly fair. i get in a new wonderful relationship and now he's leaving me to run off to california to be fucking homeless. what the hell ever. so now i have to sit and wait for his fuckin ass to decide to come home. fuck this.

this is getting downright ridiculous. 
leave me alone.
what i do with my life became none of your concern once you removed yourself from it.
so babydoll,
i'll kindly ask you to go fuck yourself. 

i feel like you're crucifying me for trying to heal my own heart. i'm sorry that it got to be too much to bear on my own and there was someone willing to help me, so i brought them into my life. i'm sorry that you decided overnight that i wasn't the person you wanted to spend your time with and didn't even tell me, but lied to me repeatedly about ( Read more... )

my new boyfriend is absolutely amazing. i love you, justin lee hester. i'm still making the transition from being in a long relationship with someone i was in love with to this new person who is the exact opposite. i'm not very used to guys wanting to hear how i feel about everything that has happened. we are getting our shit straight and moving in ( Read more... )

i kinda feel like disappearing ( Read more... )

colors and apples never meant more to me than they did on saturday. 12 hours of the most wonderful journey i've ever been on with three of my favorite people.

i figured out how to not give a shit about anything that's going on.

smoke pot.
all fucking day.
non stop.

i have never been so depressed i couldn't eat.
until now.
what i do eat (2 fucking fruit cups) i throw up.

i pray every day to forget about justin
i think God has abandoned me.

 i never would have thought that someone i held up so high could be such a fucking asshole. and someone i just thought of as my friend could end up being the shoulder i WANT to cry on.

everyone please think positive thoughts and pray for my boy, justin burkett. he got shipped out and i worry about him every day. i've known this boy for the longest time, and our moms are best friends. this war has got to end.