as stupid and emotional as my husband is i love him. he will be here in a day!!!

my husband doesn't know me and doesn't love me... great to here huh?

How do you write a welcome  hom card to a person who doesn't want to be home? Today i talked to Luke. This past week he told me he is depressed about leaving his family. Somehow that makes him not want to live with me. I'm being blamed for him moving to Germany. If he wasn't moving to Germany he would be in Korea. I remember when he was excited ( Read more... )

this month is going to be filled with many ups and downs... luke is getting here the 19th.  I'm so excited but when he gets here i will be getting ready for thanksgiving. this will be my second thanksgiving without my grandma and my first thanksgiving away from home.  it's going to be really hard not being around family during the holidays. i'm ( Read more... )

i don't think people really read this anymore and that is what i hope ( Read more... )

ps i am married to the most wonderful man alive. Germany here we come. life is going to be so great. the next 2 months will be hard but when he gets there it will all be ok.

<33 beth

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life seems empty. nothing to do, no people to see. pretty lame. it's almost my birthday. i'm going on a girls weekend with my mom, aunt, and cousins because this will most likely be my last birthday here. It sound sad but it really isn't. i'm excited. I'm ready to leave. I have only a few friends and i'm not sure they are real (i'll find out soon ( Read more... )

So life is crazy. i went back and read my past entries. things have changed so much! i can't say if it's better or worse... just changed. i leave in march for the Air Force. I'm starting a whole new life in a different place. I have lost most of my good friends but have made a couple new ones. Don't really know what's going on in life.... i'm just

Some reason it doesn't seem real. She can't be gone. I still feel as if she's here. She was here when i needed someone to talk to, when i needed advice, and when i just wanted to hang out. It wierd how in a few hours life can change so dramatically. The next few weeks will be hard. I'm sure i will find ways to keep myself busy. My family is putting ( Read more... )