found this in my yesterdays
i think it belongs to you.

these days have been the weirdest, most honest days i've had for a while..... i am ugly ( Read more... )

i had an awesome weekend. it started suck, besides that fact that joshua's new band is really good. i didnt like frontline but i liked lee, so who knows where that will go. it got better though ( Read more... )

so i have the best pretend boyfriend, and loren made up the most beautiful first kiss story and she told me and my pretend boyfriend, which was kinda weird.... mainly because its strange for someone to tell you your own life story. but not a real life story anyway. so i had a good day and loren told me the best joke so i laughed ( Read more... )

i screw up everything i touch.
i bleed the very life out of you.
enjoy the peace you have when i am not there.

im done with this grounding thing, i feel that there is nothing to do here on the weekends, and no one wants to hang out. i guess i will go out of town every weekend so i dont have to think about it.

where has my life gone?

~beth

i got sick... i barded, sweet. no.
so how was your day?

~beth

this morning i feel like im gonna die. i wake up feeling like im gonna barf then drown in it. i dont want to do anything but i think im gonna try and make it to church... brook hills. peace.

~beth

i dont like to feel that i dont know people anymore.
everyone is becoming distant, or is it me that is being distanced?

~beth

i told the truth, im always afraid of what people will think when i am honest.
so ive screwed up, it happens... and now i am sorry. i hope that i never fall so hard so fast ever again, that way i can pick myself up much easier.

i hate me for who i am.

~beth