I'm not sure exactly what I am...but I'm glad that I'm the person he thought of.

I finished the book I was reading. It was excellent. I decided to smoke a cigarette but the porch light had already been turned off and since it's 5 in the morning, I didn't want to chance turning it back on and waking up one of the many people sleeping in my living room. So instead, I opened my bedroom window and perched on the windowsill. It ( Read more... )

So...Cliff called me today while I was getting ready to leave for Sarah's house. Cliff. It was weird. I had no idea who it was. He sounds...different. Happier maybe? He stopped smoking entirely. He's gonna join the airforce! He wanted to hang out tonight but I had a concert to go to with Sarah and Chynna so I told him I'd call him tomorrow and we'd ( Read more... )

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Okay. So I'm better. Things will get back to normal. I will go put in more applications tomorrow and I will get a job--even if it's just working at a fast food place. And I want to start going to more shows. But, Sarah, I'm gonna need your help. You gotta start going with me. And we gotta start talking to people that we don't know. I wanna meet new ( Read more... )

LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

I didn't need your help finding a job. And I didn't need you to be anything other than my friend. I did, however, need to see you. I needed a hug. That's all I needed. But you didn't want to see me today after all. I don't really blame you. Who would want to? At any rate, that's it. It's clear that you don't want to see me. So I give up. And that's ( Read more... )

You know the only thing worse than trying to go to sleep after getting screamed at about how much of a loser you are from your dad? Waking up to a phone call where you get screamed at about how much of a loser you are by your mom. I'm not sure if either of them think they're helping me or what but all they're doing is making me want to curl up in a ( Read more... )

So I just got chewed out by my dad for eating soup out of the pot I used to cook it in. And because my car window won't roll up and I have a coolant leak and the wiring is all messed up so both of my brake lights don't work. And my check engine light has been on for weeks. And I have no money to fix it. And I owe U of H money and I don't have any. ( Read more... )

So...the other night I went shopping with Sarah and then I really wanted to go to the movies but she didn't so I called Daniel and we went on a psuedo-date. He paid...which was nice. After the movie, we came back to my house and watched Eternal Sunshine and then we went to Jack in the Box and got some food...then I told him I was tired so he went ( Read more... )