HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH! I OLIVE YOU 50 BIG ( Read more... )

The funny thing is that tomorrow I'm going to wake up and I'm going to be so happy just to be alive. Who cares about insignificant little problems? A little time will pass and they'll be gone and eventually I'll be deliriously happy again. I'll be back to the annoying little being that I am when I'm so happy that I feel like I might burst. I'll be ( Read more... )

I am so unhappy. I don't want anyone else to fix me. I want to fix myself. And I'm sure that in a few days, I'll be fine. Maybe even tomorrow morning when I wake up. But right now I'm a bit...well...broken. And none of the people that matter to me are making it any better. One day, when I'm really rich, I'm going to hire someone solely to love me. ( Read more... )

So I fell asleep with kitty when we got home today. I was supposed to hang out with Sarah but she never came over to wake me up. She said she thought she would let me sleep. Dean called when I was sleeping. I talked to him but I have no idea what I said. I woke up all disoriented and called Sarah. She said she was too tired to hang out so I drove ( Read more... )

So after I wrote my drunken update, I read for awhile and once I was sober (and I was finished with the book), I felt really great. Amazing, even. I got all of the stuff that I will need from the apartment (clothes, books, dvds, cat stuff, etc...) and put it all in my car. And then I drove to my dad's house. I'm going to stay here for awhile, I ( Read more... )

The passing of time really sucks. When did I get forced to grow up? What happened to everything I was going to do? I had a plan. I had a fucking plan and now I don't. Now I'm just kind of floating from day to day. And I'm so angry today. I don't know what I'm so angry at. Lots of things, I suppose. But I'm so angry that I want to cry. Or hit ( Read more... )

Last night I was sitting outside my apartment and I heard this little kid saying, "sister," over and over again. It reminded me of when Elisheva and Deena dress each other up in their clothes and do this little dance thing and say, "sistas." I miss them. I think I'm completely decided on a foster home at this point. I love having people to take ( Read more... )

When I was about 4 years old and my little brother was still my best friend, we spent alot of time on our jungle gym in the backyard. Our next door neighbor, Vernon, was a year younger than me. One day, Vernon, my little brother, and I were swinging and they started an argument over who was going to marry me when we grew up. I, of course, chose ( Read more... )

The collar bone is my favorite part of the body. I love sloppy kisses; I think they're endearing. I'm a pretty big fan of champagne. Dogs that are as big as horses make me a little bit nervous. The smell of fast food makes me sick to my stomach. Lately, everything makes me sick to my stomach. I missed my first homework assignment for college ( Read more... )

I'm feeling alot better than I have lately. And I'm not moving out.