Things that make me happy: Wakeboarding, soft kisses, warm blankets, cold weather, inside jokes, pedicures, surprises, rain at night, Bailey, hot pink, looking at the stars, "doublemint twins" moments, flowers, Aqua Digio, my tattoo, Packers and Patriots football, Tim Burton, a good book, thong panties, homemade cards, bubble baths and long showers ( Read more... )

So I hung out with Mark last Thursday. (Mark as in the Bailey and Galyen Mark) and I have to say I'm really glad I didn't end up dating him either. He was so annoying at the Texans game. Mark Heasty said he couldn't even picture me being friends with that guy much less dating him. But its ok. I saw Tristram at the game. I had forgotten how cute he ( Read more... )

It has been a little over a year and I'm still as much of a manic mess as I was last year. I guess some things never change. I think that maybe there is something seriously wrong in my head... I seem to be fine on the outside and anyone who I meet or talk to has no idea that inside... I just want to scream. I guess that's why God made me an actress ( Read more... )

18,000,000 thoughts bouncing around. At least one has to be profound. I spent an entire day alone in my own head. Very few distractions. The few encounters I did have with other people felt like dreams. My mom called a few times, but I only pretended to listen. I mean... I was listening and responding... but effortlessly. The whole time she spoke ( Read more... )

She is lost. Everything constantly changing and moving. Not an ounce of consistancy. Never the same. She feels cold and heartless. Immune to her senses. Feeling, hearing, seeing, tasting, smelling..... nothing. She is uselessly searching. For what.... she doesn't know. She has been shoved off the edge of a high dive without warning. Falling... ( Read more... )

So I have figured out the purpose of Carl. God put him here to show me that there is, in fact, life after Lee. Everything happens for a reason. I guess that's his reason. He is still in love with Christine though. They will probably get married. This whole "long distance relationships never work" crap is bullshit. My brother went to Iraq for 2 ( Read more... )

All I ever do these days is wait with anticipation for my next great adventure. The next party or wakeboarding competition. They are so few and far between. I wait with such great anticipation that at times, I forget to have fun with my everyday life. I don't want to be one of those people who thinks nothing is ever good enough (my father and my ( Read more... )

So I posted the stuff below before that conversation was finished.... after I said to change the subject he said no... he said he didn't understand what I wanted to know. I said I didn't want to know anything... then he told me to rephrase my statement into the form of a question. So I said " Is the reason you don't want to date me because you are ( Read more... )

amazing.... never pretty ( Read more... )

So, my mom found out that my lil bro doesn't want to hang out with her boyfriend..... too bad I can't tell her that... she would cry. Carl has noticed that I am ignoring him, I think. I watched Love Actually last night and the girl who is in love with her coworker but can't do anything about it because of her brother...her name is Sarah.... his ( Read more... )