( 2 November, 1981: Private Journal )

And so I returned to London this afternoon, while Will stayed in Tuscany. I thought my heart would break when I had to leave him behind. My treasure, my precious son. He is so strong, though; stronger than I am, I think. And I will be back with him before year's end. It is definite. Mother said we are to stay at the villa. She would like us to live ( Read more... )

I'll be leaving for the villa tomorrow rather than Sunday. I talked to Will this morning. He has a cold and is miserable, and I want to be there with him. Fortunately, I have only four patients scheduled, and three were seeing Max when I was in hospital and after. I've asked him, and he's agreed, to step in and meet with any who wish to keep their ( Read more... )

Madeline visited this evening. Although she rather avoided the topic, it was clear she is still very concerned about my well-being ( Read more... )

I look at the previous entry. All right. There. I've acknowledged that part of what happened in words ( Read more... )

I question my abilities with Arnold Peasgood; whether I am capable of giving him the help he needs. I am finding it so very difficult to keep an objective view, to maintain focus, to be professional, always keeping my own thoughts and fears safely hidden away while he speaks of things that tear at my very heart ( Read more... )

Today's session with Arnold Peasgood was probably the most disturbing session I have ever had with a patient.

I learned conclusively today that he does hurt people. No. More than "hurts." He destroys people.

He told me this. And it isn't in a way those without magic could ever comprehend. He takes what these people are--sometimes everything--but ( Read more... )

Isabel Crouch paid me a visit tonight. She came to see if I might take on a new patient, a friend of her and her husband's. Interestingly, it was the Ministry Obliviator, Arnold Peasgood. The one who was at Al and Holly's--after Carolyn. The one who made a scene, shattered a tea cup against the wall. The one who Mafalda said threatened her ( Read more... )

Yesterday I learned that Carolyn was murdered ( Read more... )

Seeing patients again has indeed been helpful ( Read more... )