Comments | bewildered_am_i: I Feel Better

bewildered_am_i

I Feel Better

Feb 16, 2005 22:55

Okay, I'm back for a second entry today because I need to say something. I was pretty down earlier, and if you don't know what I mean please read the previous entry. But after a lot of crying and talking to my Lord I've decided that I was very wrong to say I was worthless. I mean didn't Jesus die for me? If I am bought with a price then surely that ( Read more... )

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criostai February 17 2005, 06:10:14 UTC

Hey..sorry I don't even know what EC *is* so I can't help ya there. I'm glad you're feeling better. I was worried bout you. Praying for you too.

bewildered_am_i February 17 2005, 08:08:01 UTC

Thank you! And I've got you in my prayers as well. And I guess EC stands for EveryonesConnected.com. Its this site where you connect with all sorts of people *blush* that's prolly obvious by the name. But anyway, a lot of UPC members are supposedly on it. I thought I'd like to try something where I could connect with more of my sisters and brothers in Christ. *shrug* Only found out about it today...er yesterday now, so I'm sooo lost! Hehehe. Thanks though. Take care. God bless.

criostai February 17 2005, 15:30:49 UTC

lemme know! that sounds kinda cool.

bewildered_am_i February 17 2005, 16:00:28 UTC

*Giggle* It really is cool. There are TONS of pentecostals on it. And its amazing how many people know people who know people. That's where the site gets its name from. All you've got to do is register and then search for people you know. If you do end up doing it, my name is Lacy Bigelow if you want to add me to your friends list. I'll add you. Its not so difficult to figure out, I was just so excited that I didn't read very close. Take care. God bless.

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claripossum February 17 2005, 06:35:56 UTC

Awww... if I'd have seen that post before you got better I ... might have said something... LoL. I'm bad about that but sometimes I see posts like that and in my flesh I think, it's just a phase and they'll get over it in a little while. *blush* But I TOTALLY know what you mean about wanting a real family. That is exactly why I came to Texas. It was more I felt emotionally alone than anything else. I was the only Apostolic person in that house and I was starting to crumble for lack of support from my family in that area. I had a wonderful church and a wonderful youth group to support me but I just wasn't real close to anybody there. I've mentioned it before but when I first got in church I was just so shy and didn't really know how to make CLOSE friends and so it was hard to initiate it once I started getting better at interacting with other people. So I felt like I was completely alone among a whole LOT of people who really cared about me. Sis Guerra tells me that she believes God is going to give me what I've been lacking ( ... )

bewildered_am_i February 17 2005, 08:02:23 UTC

Lol. No I get what you're saying, and I think you may be right. I was living in a house where my mom and her husband didn't really understand the concept that I was in need of their support. And its an issue I gave to the Lord and have forgiven her for, but my mother was always more concerned about her own affairs to really bother with mine. She loves me, but she was never someone I could depend on. So anyway, I DID spend my money cause I wanted to fill something up inside of me. Lol. I only wish I'd decided to do something else like...finger paint! Hehehehe. Take care. God bless.

ishuai February 17 2005, 15:18:22 UTC

*gives you a hug*

you are very much worthwhile. ...and, you know, this will sound silly in the light of everything else, but i just wanted to let you know that i feel your pain when it comes to not having a driver's license. i'm 23 and i still don't have mine--and i live in a place that has no public transportation. (of course, there are lots of reasons that i don't have it yet, and God has been so awesome to provide me rides both to work everyday and to church. it might have even been a blessing, but hey. the frustration is definitely still there.)

remember, all things work together for the good of those that love Him... He knows what He's doing, even though it can look unhappy and blech. He rocks! God bless!

sleepybluekitty February 17 2005, 23:43:47 UTC

Glad to see that you are feeling better! I just wanted to say something to this: I'm carrying this idea that I have to have everything figured out already, and that I'm some kind of failure because I just don't yet. That's something I have found to be very embedded in the culture we live in today. They think once you turn 18 you know everything you need to know, I tell you what though, I'm 21 {22 tomorrow} and I still don't know everything. God is Great for uplifting you. Also wanted to say about the marriage urge, I had pretty strong myself, until I read in The Bible that it's not something you are to be activily seeking, just sit back and let Him do all the work. I still wonder about it from time to time, but then I just give it to Him and go on =^_^= It's really taken my stress level down! =^_^= again Amen and Praise the Lord for your uplifting!

Much Hope and Many Blessings! =^_^=

bewildered_am_i February 19 2005, 14:35:19 UTC

Happy belated Birthday! And thank you for your words. As for the marriage thing, it actually only gets me down in unguarded moments when I'm stressed out about just about everything, it just likes to jump right on top of the pile and bite me on the nose. Lol. But I've given it to God again and I'm alright now. I'm also not beating myself up for having emotions and such. Anyway, take care. And I really hope you had a blast yesterday for your birthday.