Why is it that I give a damn about people? Especially, when they so obviously don't care about me? Why am I so soft hearted? I really try to be more bitchy. I try to cut people out of my life and I try to be mean and rude just like everyone else, but I always stop myself from really taking the plunge into true Bitchiness. And then, inevitably ( Read more... )

Well, its been a couple of weeks since my last entry, even longer since my last real entry. There isn't really much to say. I've been keeping busy. My brother moved back to CT so I'm really missing his company. And yes, I hang out with my brother a lot. People always look at you strange when you admit to actually getting along with your ( Read more... )

it is at moments after i have dreamed ( Read more... )

Why do I have no one to talk to? Why when I need a friend the most is there nobody who wants to talk to me? I'm so pathetic I guess.

I'm too tired to mince words right now. I feel like shit. I'm so tired!! I'm tired of friends who unload all their personal crap on me and then don't have the time to listen when I have some problems. I'm tired of people who treat me like I'm either really dumb or too young to understand anything. I'm tired of being treated like I'm fucking ( Read more... )

Loreena McKennitt - The mystic's dream ( Read more... )

Well, I've finally gone and bit the bullet. I sent in my application for college this morning. I'm still confused about a lot of the process, but if I sit here trying to figure it out for too long then I'll get discouraged and won't do it. This way, I figure I'll just get help along the way and I've already made the first move. So, yay me. I'm ( Read more... )

Take your panties off ( Read more... )

I step into the Garden of Dreams ( Read more... )

A few days ago, I was sitting outside on my lunch break just enjoying the sunshine and the wind in my hair (if none of you have noticed I have a strong affinity for the wind). I had a book with me and some music, but the book I couldn't seem to concentrate on. I was too busy watching nature and all its beauty. Now, I might sound like a quack, ( Read more... )