This morning I felt horrible. I felt like a big, fat, ugly cow. I wanted to hide myself, literally hide myself. I still feel that way, but that's not why I wanted to write ( Read more... )

Ugh.

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Okay, so I'm not writing this entry to be all down on myself. I think we should all rejoice in our flaws as well as our other qualities. Flaws make us unique and they give us something for which to strive towards. So here are mine ( Read more... )

Let My worship be within the heart that rejoices,
for behold, all acts of love and pleasure are My rituals.
Therefore let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion,
honor and humility, mirth and reverence within you.

I'm going crazy. I don't know what's wrong with me these days. I feel like I'm coming out of my skin. I need adventure, I crave it down deep in my marrow. I can barely work I'm so restless--scratch that I CAN'T work. I want nothing more than to lose all control. I feel like I'm on the verge of becoming some wild creature and that both excites ( Read more... )

Well, I'm still restless. I think it must be spring. I'm always ready for new adventures when the weather turns warmer ( Read more... )

I want to flirt. Its been so long since I've let myself flirt and act outrageous around men. I've been so self conscious lately that I've tried to blend in with the crowd. I used to love being social, but lately I feel so damn boring. I don't hang out, I don't socialize, I don't date. These days I've been pretty reclusive, which was fine for a ( Read more... )

On Saturday, my dad took me to this little used book store in this little out of the way plaza. I don't know how anyone finds the place, its so nestled in the middle of everything, but somehow my dad found it. The moment I walked into the store I felt as if I was in my own personal heaven. The smell of paper and ink and time all meshed together in ( Read more... )

I had an amazing dream last night. It was one of those dreams that lingers in your mind days after you've actually dreamed it, like the warmth that radiates off your skin after you've basked in the sun. I describe it like that because that's what if felt like when I woke up, like I'd just come in from a beautiful day in the sun. Its brought me a ( Read more... )