I hope that title is true, cuz I don't know if I can ever go through this again. At the very least I don't want to. I know my own strength is insufficient... Thank God He's been propping me up. Each day. This morning I awoke and knew I was completely out of strength. I have some vague memories of holding Phil through the night as he ranted and ( Read more... )

It's so hard to know what to say, what to think. In grief, sometimes the sentiment is lost and you are left with just the bare bones. A car crash. Some online news reports. Raw love for your family. Raw pain for the loss, moreso for the loss of those whose daily lives will be forever changed. The loss of a mother, a wife, a sister, an oma. How does ( Read more... )

I have been married for 5 years now. My husband is lovely, my children are beautiful, my house is a mess, my life is still crazy and nomadic, and I've realized that I probably have ADD (hence so many, many entries being so depressed and sporadic ( Read more... )

It always seems no matter how down I am He is already setting up ways for me to get better. Those steps really paid off... I didn't get all of them done, but having just a few was apparently enough ( Read more... )

feel like I'm drowning in a steaming mass of my own emotional excrement ( Read more... )

I'm dying here. I so SO want to be in our own place! I know I can... MUST survive 3 months here, but I just feel like shit all the time ( Read more... )

I know, two posts in one day, how tacky. But I have really been missing this, and I know that every moment I have to type is a moment of grace before Rose wakes to nurse. Typing with one hand is too slow and frustrating to be any sort of relief ( Read more... )

It's so strange how things have changed now that I'm married. Phil has been putting together bucket lists and goals for life, and he keeps asking me mine. I keep telling him that I don't do that much, but then I realize that I used to. Not set goals, I never really cared if they happened or not, but I always had a five year plan. Now I don't ( Read more... )

We're almost done with the pregnancy ( Read more... )

I feel like air again ( Read more... )