this is strange
foreign
though i used to call this home
i now see i come here when i'm alone

numb
it numbs me
and i melt
but with you
it melts

i'm so bad at these things
my head can bob with the best of them
but it can't get me out of this wet paper bag
your eyes flash
damn i'm stuck
petrified
you give me the medusa

should i be doing all this
where's the priority
i' ( Read more... )

 my heart quickened, i had no control
my stomach tightened, i was degrading quickly

i left the situation, to get a hold of something
and i took a look at that porcelain
the knots inside of me were ready to come out
they worked their way around, but i held them down

i removed myself from the situation
and i didn't sleep at all

did you knock on my window
was ( Read more... )

 you make me fly
and you make me sink
but it's all worth it
because i'm living this week

we've been away for quite some time
and it's breaking me apart from inside to outside
but i'm sticking together for you
i've prayed for this to be better
and hoped along with it

god help us both
we need guidance
and if we're meant to be
then we're meant to be
but if we're ( Read more... )

i was broken
i am not 
i was fearful
but i am not

i live through the day with this infestation
my mind rotting itself
i've got a computer for a hand
and my eyes love to look
hoping
wishing
correspondence
attention

dont fret about me because i know youre not
i am, i am
infested to the core
to my core it says more
and with more i am filled to the brim

lent.  i gave ( Read more... )

 we fall apart
me from the seams
i become nothing
but broken dreams
i fear for the worst
yet i hope in distress
goodbye means 'til next time
next time is never best
this time i'm coming apart
the seams stitched loosely
i'll hold dear this heart
until next time; just use me

my all time valentine ( Read more... )

the grass is always greener
near the suicide
take your time to run and hide
behind rational thoughts
i never knew what else to wish for
i'm stuck at my first wish
this is us down before this is us breaking

this is all because we feel ( Read more... )

(originally written February 13, 2005 ( Read more... )

lies are the only words you spread
but don't worry
i'm stronger than that
but my words aren't the only thing you read
we're all in a hurry
use me as your door mat