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not really sure what im doing or how i feel.

i just had a slue of nightmares. not the kind full of monsters and demons. just your adverage day to day monsters ( Read more... )

today i have an interview for what i'm not sure i hope its a buyer job but im not that lucky. if its sale i might turn them down im desperate but toni tells me i can wait till its right and that its bad karma to take a job i do not intend to keep ( Read more... )

So,i fina lly am getting train on the laser welder, i work with gold and i am the model maker at my job. Yup yays right unfortunitly now that i have the perfect job, kinda the one i always wanted i'm quitting in a month to be with my girl. I am so scared i wont be able to find the equivalient. With out the comfort of the shady diamond district ( Read more... )

whats been happening ( Read more... )

1 my brother moved this weekend ( Read more... )

so this week was just a bit scary ( Read more... )

i started my application to penland. i no where close to finished i started the questions part and am writing anything that comes to mind i will edit tomorrow. its exhausting how much i want to get away. i'm tired of just talking about this place i'm ready to go. i'm going to let myself do nothing with my life. i met too many failures in my life. ( Read more... )

i know what my responsibilities are. i know there are alot of people in worse shoes. i know i am handling things better, than most, and in a fuck up not really way i am lucky ( Read more... )

i got a fire massage from john and now i free all good. i always get surprised how little i burn when the flame is dancing on my skin. i kinda can't describe it. it hurts but its warm and incredibly light. it feels like the flames are pulling everything out of your body. its comfy i loves it ( Read more... )