"She will try to create something temporal, even trivial, but perfect in its way."

[bezigebij]

It is warm and the the peaches in the bowl keep rotting quickly; so I need to eat them even quicker. Life is good and I haven't been here much. This was to a large extent a conscious decision. I needed a break. I needed to withdraw and I'm still not sure what my relationship with the Internet and this journal should be. I am looking for focus. I am

Comments

[wyliekat]

I was just thinking of you a couple of days ago, wondering how you were. I'm glad you're just enjoying some nesting and some focus. Nesting is a oft-ignored past time, and it really cannot be prized enough.

[bezigebij]

Yes, nesting is good. Focusing too. I need both in my life right now.

[lizardek]

I'm not always enamored of roses, but we planted 4 behind the house in the spring (all different) and I was surprisingly pleased at how lovely they have turned out!

[bezigebij]

Yes, they can be surprising. There are still lots of roses that I am not very fond of; I find them to stiff, too cultivated, too showy. However, there are lots of roses that are very loose and organic in growth and subtle. I feel almost ashamed that I judged the whole genus based on a few outspoken members. Surprisingly lovely indeed!

[tealight_rookie]

Isn't it a joy to have the time and the space in one's mind to fuss over flowers and summer fruit?

I'm glad things are good. What a season for it!

[bezigebij]

It is a very good sign that I am in a place to fuss over such things. Now if I can get my concentration sorted out, I'll be very pleased.

[ladycoreopsis]

I had a similar tun-around about roses and peonies one day while at a supermarket. They had roses in their garden department and when I saw them, they made me think of my grandpa. He had white roses in his garden, and big white fluffy peonies as well, and all of a sudden I found myself all nostalgic, thinking of my passed grandfather in the store. I later planted some roses at our summerhome.

[bezigebij]

I love how plants can do that - can evoke such strong memories of people and places. I just need to smell a tomato plant and I'm back in NJ, eating tomatoes out of my hand at my grandparents' home. I recently bought a lemon verbena, and that's another plant, that for me, is saturated in memories.

[vaneramos]

I'm familiar with the search for focus. Sometimes I have to take time out to clarify my priorities and purpose.

It seems trivial to say The Hours is one of my favourite movies. It's better to say it left a lasting impression. I liked the book but it didn't hit me the same way. I have yet to read Mrs. Dalloway.

[bezigebij]

Yes, if I have a clear purpose it helps me stay focused. I think part of the problem is that I was standing too long at a cross roads, unwilling to make a decision, and so not taking steps forward became a habit. It is time to break that habit

[vaneramos]

What you say here about happiness seems like an essential truth, one I continue to struggle with. Would you mind if I quote you in my journal?

[bezigebij]

I'm glad what I wrote resonates with you, and, by all means, quote at will.