I've started writing fiction again. It feels exciting, hopeful, and powerful. I guess there's nothing else I want to do more in this life than write stories. Elsewhere previously, I've described the change in conditions that seem to have made this possible, so I won't go into them here ( Read more... )

On Sunday while driving I glimpsed a church sign for some evangelical congregation and it caused a discombobulating moment. My emotions sighed happily, like, "Oh, isn't that nice?" like I would have done as an evangelical Christian. This despite the fact that I've rejected all religion for about 20 years, particularly the kinds that proselytize. ( Read more... )

I dreamt about a woman who carried on affairs with various men. She used elaborate illusions to keep these affairs secret. It seems like a further development on Sandy, the serial killer and also had similar elements with Darwin and the ill-fated dissidents in that it was a period drama with older male characters and a younger woman who defied ( Read more... )

I dreamt I had a crush on a Muslim student. I was a bit older than him. It felt like when I first came out and got involved in the queer student association at University of Guelph. We were participating in a march to support Muslim students. He was my roommate but we didn’t know one another very well yet. He wasn’t bearish but he had a solid build ( Read more... )

I dreamt about Darwin and a group of his friends who were political dissidents. This was a long, complicated dream including numerous characters, many of whom were young female students of Darwin. He had been a teacher at a university. Many of the student characters wore fanciful masks that resembled comedie de l’arte costumery, but they all ( Read more... )

I dreamt about a woman whose employer had been murdered. Her name was Sandy and she was a graphic artist. In the beginning of the dream she had just got her first job. At first she was working for a different man. He had his own business and worked long hours doing difficult work. Sandy appeared to enjoy working with him. He clearly had a crush on ( Read more... )

While meditating today, I experienced what seemed like an altered state of consciousness. It wasn't the first time. I've experienced different kinds of sensations and perceptions since I started meditating regularly last fall. However, I don't recall it starting until I began using meditation guides incorporating periods of silence ( Read more... )

Another good thing that has happened over the past few months was that I got into a program of Canadian Mental Health Association called Bridging Employment Supports. It is designed for people with disabilities, including mental health concerns. I registered not long after going into the day hospital program last February, but sat on a waiting list ( Read more... )

I dreamt about a Persian prince who had a family of servants who served him faithfully: a man, a woman, and their daughter ( Read more... )

A few nights ago I dreamt about a series of gruesome murders at a resort frequented by Chinese people. There were many people arranged in rows and columns as if they were toys hanging on racks, and they were all dressed in vividly coloured ethnic costumes. Several assassination scenes seemed inspired by the movies Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon and ( Read more... )