Kissing Jessica Stein

[bflybabe]

I feel like Helen in Kissing Jessica Stein... with the girlfriend who won't acknowlege me around others... I mean, she does... her cousins know that I'm her girlfriend... but I can't hold her hand... and it's really really bugging me... hurts.

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[bflybabe]

I finally brought it up to her in a teary-eyed late-night conversation that I had wanted to put off until today with no luck. So, we got to talk. She says that she's scared. Because not everyone is okay with people being gay.

She then ...:'(... said that if i won't be happy then I should leave. and I got all the more teary-eyed as I don't want to lose her.

[bflybabe]

well, she said that she acknowledges me to her family and friends... and she does... they do know me as her girlfriend. and says why does the rest of the world matter. and doesn't understand why its a big deal... that at least she tells me that she loves me...

her fear is that something will happen. in her eyes, the world isn't a safe place...

you know what i'm thinking, though ... i think its more a her not accepting things than other people not... just a guess... i mean, she can't say the word "lesbian" ... she'd say something like "do you parents know?"
"know what?"
"that you are?"
"lesbian? yes."
*Sigh* oh well... other than this, things are good...

and maybe as time goes on she'll be a little less scared.