ok..so i realize that my last post was written in anger and was a little over the top, and well, quite frankly, just too much. yes, i'm still hurt, and yes, i'm still working throgh it. it doesn't just take one day. i still miss him, and the way things were and the little things he used to say, and our little inside jokes, and how we could just ( Read more... )

So yeah, he broke up with me by basically saying "get the fuck away from me, i'm done with you" and then telling me that he found someone else! The fucking bastard cheated on me and has another girlfriend! I can't believe he'd betray me in such a way. and let's not mention the fact that he broke up with me WHILE knowing that im sick (i have ( Read more... )

...I just don't know what to do with him. We've broken up-- twice-- but got back together both times. when we fight we FIGHT. he's such an asshole sometimes and he'll even admit to being an asshole, but he won't do anything to improve it. ugh..i just don't know what to do. i wish i had someone to talk about it with. i tried to break it off, ( Read more... )

So Sean had to take me to the ER this weekend. i have a really, really bad toothache. and it turned into a sinustrack infection, which of course caused me to have a fever as well, and the swelling in my face...let's not even go there. my face is still swelling up like a ballon, and it's really painful. i haven't eaten in over two days, and i'm not ( Read more... )

and i know i haven't been writting in a while. Sean has kept me busy. lol. i love him, he's really great. everything is going good. it happened so fast, i never knew what hit me. it's really weird. the only thing i can see that we should work on is that we both tend to get a little jealous..ok, maybe it's an understatement. but no couple is ( Read more... )

oh livejournal, don't think ive forgotten you. nope. i just had to concentrate on leaving sheppard, driving to florida, and getting settled down here. it's beautiful here. and the beach is amazing. i went around midnight, and i had it all to myself. it was wonderful. so peaceful. i still haven't met anyone here, expect for my suite mate, which is ( Read more... )

i (seriously) don't even know who i am anymore. i'm not that good person anymore. i don't know what happened to her, but she's not here.

how do i get myself into these complicated messes? i don't understand. i need to be able to talk to someone about everything...

I made a horrible mistake yesterday... but i dont regret it. i don't know how to feel about it. i know i shouldn't have done it, but at the same time, i feel so neutral about it, and i don't even understand why. i should feel something, but i don't.

wow..i can't believe i haven't written in here since Jay broke up with me...that was so long ago. I was depressed for a really long time..but i got over it, i started my life again. Turns out, i'm doing fine. I joined the Air Force, and now i'm in Tech School, studying to be a medic. I hope i can do it, it's a really tough course. When i get ( Read more... )