today is my b-day ,,,,, what a day it has been like shit ,,,see i dont have my true love here with me and she sent me a email say she loves me and i was her red head girl and she wished she could be here with me ....but if she wanted to realy wanted to be here she would have and that is the truth ...see i would have sent for her so she could be ( Read more... )

i want to die ,,,,,i dont know what to do i love someone and they lie to me and i still love her very much i wish i could just die and no one would be sad or mad at me ,,,,i have sat in my room and think about how i could do it ,,, i will never see or talk to her again ....she has lost me over one bitch and she knows it and she has said so too ,,,, ( Read more... )

well it has been three weeks and i have not seen my true love and she will talk to me for only 5 mins at a time and she tells me that she loves me but i dont know what to do because i dont think she is coming back to me .... i look at her pic and see her eyes and know that i will never see her again and will never hold her in my arms at nite and ( Read more... )

well i sitting here waitting for "D" to come home and she didnot so i didnot get to eat because i hurt my back at work and all i was doing was makeing things right... i am just a fuck up in life....

well "D" is doing it to me again she is with S_M and in my car and i have to work and hurt my back and she dont care about me ........

i have been working hard lately and i haven't got to write in my journal......well hell i have got my girl back and things are going great and we are working hard on things ......she has not wanted to fuck with that girl no more she don't like her and she said she never did ..... she told me that the girl had something wrong with her and she did ( Read more... )

well i sitting here cring over her and i hate my life and i dont know what to do i hurtting and i dont have no one .......

well hey ... i got payed today , and my girl is always reading this and she is going to write things back to me for meanest...... she is telling me that she is with me and then if i write something she is not with me so just fuck it i will not be with no one no more i hate my life and she dont have to acted like this no more

well "D" came home i had to go get her but i told her how i felt about this shit and she told me it was over for her and S-M friendship..... i made love to her everynight and two to four times aday ......because i had to work on v-day and i came home to her everynight ..... she told me S-M called last night but she didn't talk to her and i was so ( Read more... )

well hell it is day two and "D" called my sister and told her to call me and tell me she is ok and she want be home tonight...... she is with that fucking bitch and i hope they r happy because iam not i have no one to talk to i have been in my room for two days thinking of her and what they r doing..... i guess she like that bitch pussy and she ( Read more... )