I am officially really pissed right now. My music history prof is a complete asshole. I checked my grades this morning and saw, with extreme bewilderment, that I received a "B" in that class. I went through all my grades and calculated that that was completely impossible. So I emailed him and said that I would like to meet with him to see what my ( Read more... )

I feel like crap tonight. I'm in a terribly awful mood and can't seem to get out of it. I just feel really depressed. My headaches returned this week, and I suppose they can be attributed to stress. I haven't felt "not good enough" in quite some time, but the past few days have felt like I fell into a hole in my past. Nothing has really happened to ( Read more... )

Jealousy is such a terrible emotion to feel. I hate it, hate it, hate it. It does nothing but make me feel worse about myself and have irrational fears. Ugh ( Read more... )

This week has been good. I haven't been as stressed or annoyed with the world. I saw my counselor today, and she gave me a new perspective on some issues in my life. She is always really helpful. I am so excited that school is almost over. I will be mostly at home for the summer but traveling here whenever possible to see Travis and have piano ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart, and ever since returning from Spring Break I have been irritable and angry at the world. Sometimes I want to scream because people are so stupid and frustrating. I just want to get away and be with a total of maybe 3 people that don't annoy me. For some reason I just feel so restless, like I'm constantly in ( Read more... )

Just 3 more weeks left of school and a week of exams...I'm really excited and can't wait. However, I don't know yet what I'm doing this summer except for going to Chile in July. My mom said I could teach some of her students again, but I've got my apartment with no one renting it all summer. I really want to do something to either benefit my piano ( Read more... )

Today was a terrible day for my self-confidence. These times haven't happened often, but they are shocking when they do. I'm pissed off and in pain. I feel gross and frustrated. I'm better than I make myself out to be, and I need to stop letting other people run me over. I don't deserve it. I can't let other people determine my mood and self-worth ( Read more... )

I'm afraid that my stupid surgery didn't even work. I have to go back in a week for a check-up, but I have a feeling that from the way it looks, not much good came from it. Frustrating to no end. I have the afternoon to myself=nice. I believe I shall traverse to the piano for a few hours...

What do you do when you're convinced that one of your best friends has an eating disorder but denies it? What do you do when she gets ridiculously thin but "doesn't know" how she got that way...like it's an accident or something? I know all the signs; I've been there before; I know how she feels. But I don't know how to change anything or help her ( Read more... )

This morning I had my final rehearsal before my recital tomorrow afternoon. I'm quite nervous. Everything went really well except the last movement of the Ginastera. I got really frustrated and yelled an inappropriate word. Luckily only Travis was there to witness my anger. He said the Chopin went better than it ever has before, and even though ( Read more... )