well i had a very good day off yesterday and it's back to work i go today. talked to my dad yesterday, him and i are going to be doing a side job down in san marcos this monday, more money for me!! also talked to lauren last night. I think she's starting to know were i'm comming from and our relationship is starting to grow more each time we talk ( Read more... )

well things are startting to fall into place. I now know that i want to be with lauren for the rest of my life. We have had alot of problems in the past two months but who doesn't? I've been out of line about a lot of thinks latly too. Were not all perfect and we cant always be there for people when they really need you. Brittany, i just like to ( Read more... )

i had enough time to be by myself and calm down and to tell you the truth getting that shit out of my system made me feel a whole lot better. I know i shouldn't judge any one because of what they done or think about but i do it any way, i call the bullshit when i see it. thats just who i am. I dont get along with women real well but yet i still go ( Read more... )

well i really dont know what to say to lauren anymore. I'm trying my best to be i good boyfriend but what ever i do it's not enough. and then i took her home tonight and she told me something that really freaked me out but i played it cool and then i went home and started to scream. I'm really sick of women because know matter what i say or do they ( Read more... )

I'm gonna really be glad when christmas is over because it's just to much to deal with. work is going good, i think i'm going to get a rase soon. 2 days ago i went to the store x-mas party, every one knows how i drink now witch is really great. I took lauren with me and we had a great time. Both of us are really getting close to eachother and thats ( Read more... )

well, alot has happen in the last two months. I lost a few friends, i thought i was going to be a father and i thought my grandmother was going to die but in the end it's all good. Lauren and i are starting to get along and were not fighting as much as we use to and i'm glad that we are working things out. about the friend issue, it just all comes ( Read more... )

works going a little better now but i'm still closing one day out of the week and i really do not want to close any more. I have been workink at this place for over two years now and i'm still doing the same crap. I f they would just listen to me once in a while that would be cool. Anywaz, i get the first week of november of for vacation, it's ( Read more... )

well i'm finally getting some decent hours from work now that we went to the new store. It's really nice over their, better then the old one. Lauren left to go to Oregon this morning. Lat night we kind of got into a fight out me talking to her about my problems about smokey(my father). I dont consider him as my dad at all because he has never been ( Read more... )

well it's been a while but i'm back and doing a lot better now. It's weird how things change in such a short period of time. I was finally able to let go of some people and start making a better life for myself with others. It's not that i dont like them, it's just if i dont move on sooner or later i'm going to be that jelouse little kid thats ( Read more... )

well i'm 21 now and i have a whole new look on life now. every time i go to a bar or some were like that i always meet someone very interesting. like on saturday i met this blond chick that really loves to play darts, we played for like 2 hours. she was a very interesting person and really hot. I didn't ask how old she was because i didn't want to ( Read more... )