life is hard it is all i can do from going crazy 

Another Year, I'm alive in the past year in and out of hospital 14 times. I'm dieing in pieces. If I can start back on cispride would get better. Had myback, ribs, hands anf my cock all worked on this past year. Lost 4 friends this year. Mades only 1 new one.

Time to sleep

28yrs being a diabetic... yes happy birthday to me :-) was told I had diabetes on my 21 birthday. Fun... I'm alive the last 5 months have been hell on this old body... from siezure to A-shock... to having a central line put in my chest. But I'm alive...

REMEMBER TO SMILE AND BE HAPPY....

FOR IF YOU DON'T YOU WILL GO CRAZY.

well it does. I had seizure today from a low bloodsugar.

Please stop the suffering. Please ( Read more... )

Well life is hell... birthday...card from aunt with money to make roadtrip...very nice of her.. and a call from a friend... I was hoping for a picture to replace one the was lost when computer dead... sad thing is nothing from sisters.... no call or cards.. GF ...not a damm thing not a card... kiss... hug... hell not even help in shower to wash my ( Read more... )

In 6 days I will be 48 yrs old. This has been a very hard year for me. First I have been very sick almost to the point that I was in 98. Been very afraid that I'm going to die. When I was a fool to be on house roof, and I fall off 20 feet is a long way down.. When two heart attacks. And now I can't see very well. I'm glad that my one reader is out ( Read more... )

Today was really great ( Read more... )

Today was really awful ( Read more... )

It is the holiday, I'm at a lost to understand. I hate this time of year... to many people and things ...gone. As my only reader is going thru the same kind of feeling ... do I have real friends... how do I meet and gain friends and friendship. Today should be a day filled with joy ... but it is not... I'm sad... mad... afraid I will be by myself ( Read more... )