i've never felt so alone.

honestly, i just want to smack some sense into everyone.  maybe i'll end up getting smacked back. but seriously, people. 

i wish i knew how to make you see. i wish i knew how to help you. self-destruction isn't going to make things better for you.

*shakes head*

in lighter news, I'M SO HAPPY TO FIND OUT THAT KAT AND JOSH GOT MARRIED! i'm all giggly just thinking about it.

i watched across the universe again today. love that movie. i wish i could find cid.

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i'm doing really well. i'm lonely, but i'm happy otherwise. i want to reorganize my life. i can't wait til i move and am able to start over with less hassle. its going to be an adventure.

my life has been swept up in a hurricane. 

i haven't felt loved in such a long time. what the fuck is happening in my heart right now?

i keep spinning myself into stupid dizzying circles. i'm making myself sick.

i'm okay and now i want to throw up and take back everything i've ever said

ugh. i'm so jealous.

i wish i didn't have to wake up so fucking early in the morning. i can't sleep and i want to go back out and play.

hanging out with kandace yesterday and tonight has been really good for me. she's going through a tough time, and talking with her about it and about things with todd have helped me see a lot of things. and then i feel so much better... almost like im rejuvenated and like there's hope for me.

but here i am, talking to him. and i just want to curl ( Read more... )

i want to throw up.