what the hell is this life all for? my friends lie to me, some of them get into fights and one side decides to try and drag everybody into it on her side, and then she wont listen to reason as to why i have this damn smoldering anger at her for that. why cant people just be decent enough to settel their problems between one another without trying ( Read more... )

swim camp was great! i learned a lot, and most importantly i am now motivated to swim and practice hard. So sorry if i dont hang out nearly half as much as i use too, cause swimming has now become my second biggest priority. everyone keep care of yourselves and most importantly keep smiling.

today was great!!! i woke up, went to school, went to lunch, went to work, and then EMILY BROUGHT ME CAKE!!!!! taht just cranked my world straight off its pedestals=) haha, and yeah im never gonna drive

i just want to apologize to someone right now. i dont mean to annoy you, believe me i dont try to do it. i just act the way i do because i care about you more than i guess youll ever know bud. i just want you to be happy, that is the most important thing to me,as ive told you many times before and i surely will again, and ill try hard not to show ( Read more... )

well, evidentally my family had another family night tonight. The best part of it was they told sarah bo about it, and somehow " forgot" to mention it to me once again. i also like how their only explanation is that " ryans never home", and yet they can somehow manage to tell brendan even though he lives up at the mount. i just dont know how to ( Read more... )

for everyone who reads this, things are going pretty darn good in my life!=) got to hang out with some super cool people last night, that was definitely great fun(even with emily beating my up the entire night, hahaha =)) but yeah, it was pretty awesome and thanks for it everybody! other than being sick im feeling pretty decent, oh yeah hahaha, and ( Read more... )

well, unfortunately for me, people dont seem to trust me for some reason. ive always thought of myself as trustworthy and confidable, but i guess im not, and that is no ones fault except my own. guess ill have to build up trustworthiness, and im sorry to everyone that hasnt been able to confide in or trust in me. guess this means that it is time to ( Read more... )

today: woke up after sleepin over at sarahs house, good ol debbie was kind enough to make me breakfast, that was awesome=) haha, then i went to school, cause school is cool unless you want to drool but i dont cause i swim in a pool.... haha yeah so basically school was cool, got some chow with ian and sarah, then went back to FCC for my last class ( Read more... )

oh yeah, so i had a decent weekend. got to hang out with EMILY and lindsay saturday durin the day!(after gettin a ride up to the Y with sarah bo, that was cool) and then saturday night both me and joe saw resident evil 2. then on sunday i got to party hard all day at work with EMILY!!! and lindsay, up until lindsay had to skip out early.... that ( Read more... )

hey hey hey everybody that actually might hypothetically read this!(which i highly doubt taht anyone ever will, haha oh well typing to myself is fun too i guess...)=) went to the movies tonight with emily, joey, tina, and joe! those were some awesome times, let me tell you. We laughed, we cryed, we saw napolean dynamite, i figured out how to do a ( Read more... )