yeah-ah-ah I miss YOU

today is your birthday...and it's taking all i can not to intrude and wish you a happy one. distancing myself is harder than i thought. happy birthday anyway!

tonight was definitely not the night to do that. i don't even know what i'm feeling right now. anger, confusion, anticipation, jealousy, i don't know. i guess i'll leave all the vagueness at that.

i have a straight friend who i am in no way allowed to do anything with (and maybe not be attracted to). however, he recently has taken to saying very flirtatious things to me and even body language flirting w/ me a lot. i don't think he understands that it's not too funny to me...

this summer has been an interesting one. for the first time i have been away from chattanooga, and it has opened my eyes in weird ways. i've re-discovered how much i love my friends in st. louis. i've also confirmed my love for the south and chatt! after a month of nothing, i finally found a job working at a soap store. while it is not the most ( Read more... )

it's over i think. time to move on with my life i guess

can someone please tell me what it is about alcohol that makes us feel horny. and it's not even horny. this feelings is just wanting to be with someone. at the beginning of july i got the "let's just be friends" line. i've only been given that once before and then it didn't really mean anything to me. i guess at the time it might have meant ( Read more... )

learning and moving on is easy and hard at the same time!

also, i'd just like to put this here because i don't think it's actually appropriate to send. "despite all of my beating around the bush, i'm glad you can see past my bullshit and say what needs to be said and what i need to hear!"

though i know i'm not depressed, i can feel myself sinking into a sadness that i'm not sure i've felt in a long time or at all. a couple of factors have led to my feelings recently ( Read more... )

seeing these things and asking myself what you saw in me in the first place? happy we had a shot. sad i blew it. maybe there is a chance at revival. all we need is to love ourselves.

cryptic, but that's the mood i'm in