so yeah i am actually updating this thing i havnt in forever but i figure i should update everybody who still feels like reading this. i havnt been to school in two weeks and two days, the first week i was actauly sick the rest of the time i just havnt really felt liek it and i have given myself bullshit reasons for myself to believe so that i dont ( Read more... )

yeah so its been awhile lets just put it this way i didnt go to school alot so as of right now i am not getting credit in any of my classes. i'm in love with sam still and we love eachother very much and are extreamly happy togather. she is the most amazing thing in my life i dont think that that is ever gonna change. i have been to school for the ( Read more... )

so i went to visit sam at her work today, and i told her i was comming and she didnt believe me. so i show up and i have some pink tulips. she told me she was gonna kill me at the same time that she said that she had the biggest smile and started turning red and all her friends, that just happened to be there talk about good timing, were like aww ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting here thinking to myself where did i go wrong? what didnt i do, what did i do that always makes me go from as happy as i have ever been to into the deepest darkest part of life in an instant it always happens like seriously i cant be happy its not aloud for some reason god doesnt want me to be happy ever in my life so when i find ( Read more... )

so crew is godly. lately i have been down and sad but everytime i'm there i forget all about it and i knew it would just be a matter of time before i braught it home with me. i am so happy right now nothing can bring me down i'm so happy and ready for anything. i cant wait for the play its thrusday and friday and saturday and yes i am going to all ( Read more... )

heres my life moto now fuck it i just dont care anymore about anything its like pointless to. i'm depressed i have depression but we cant get me to a theripist cause we dont have the fucking money and my dads a jackass and he can burn in hell. school sucks i cant get away from this life of mine that everyone says is so great its not my life sucks ( Read more... )

wow its been a while and i dont really have alot to talk about i dont have any idea how sam feels about me anymore first i thought she stil had feelings for me then i think she doesnt and know i think she might i dont know what to think cause when i asked her she said she didnt know but sent me and email which i wont talk anymore about but it makes ( Read more... )

answer the following questions in all honesty.

1.) what was your first impression of me?

2.) on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) what do you rate me looks wise?

3.) what do you like the least about me?

4.) what do you like the most about me?

wow so this weekend was interesting to say the least. johnnys wedding was a blast it was really actually very awesome it was cool i odnt know it was fun just to see everybody and i finally got to see my uncle mike for the first time since before he was diagnosed with cancer, he is alot thinner like whoa the kemo has done alot to him and hes lost ( Read more... )