Now work REALLY suckss ( Read more... )

work sucks ( Read more... )

I know now that it isn't going to work ( Read more... )

Everything seems alright... but, is everything ever really alright? I think he wants to do better, but he just can't change. He said he would try to do better and he was sorry for disappointing me. Now instead of voicing his problems he simply gets quite and doesn't say anything. That doesn't make anything better. That makes it worse.. and I know ( Read more... )

What do you do when you're trying to stay in love with someone who is no longer in love with you? I no longer believe that growing apart is mutual. I believe it's something that one person chooses to do, and the other person must do. What do you do when you love someone so much, and they no longer love you back? What are you supposed to do when you ( Read more... )

tonight i decided ( Read more... )

i love him ( Read more... )

this is the time of year when everyone is supposed to be happy ( Read more... )

Good friend Josh reminded me of my dear El Jay. So, I had to write. And what a perfect night to do so, as I told Shawn not to fucking call me until he knew what he wanted. I've lost all trust in him, and in the human race in general. I just don't believe in having faith anymore, except in Jesus. God is all I can rely on these days.. and I feel like ( Read more... )

I know this is all so pathetic, but I KNOW it's not real. I love him, but it isn't going to work out. I know it isn't because I FEEL that way. So, why can't I just end it? Tomorrow I'll be singing a different tune about how in love with him I am. But, tonight I'm being honest with myself. I've turned both of my phones off because I don't want to ( Read more... )