my grandpa died today. it didn't come as a surprise. but the fact that i wasn't crying did. i felt alien to the emotioin. the tears didn't come when we were preparing for his death this week. they didn't come when i got the news from my grandmother's feeble voice that he had passed. nor did they come when i was holding my father who couldn't hold ( Read more... )

ive realized more and more in my life that i am not the so called open person i thought i was... i keep finding myself closing off, turning my back, doing whatever i can to hide myself from the people i care... when does the facade stop!?

The desire for truth inherent to all of humanity signifies the existence of some truth, even in the light of humanities incapacity to discover what that truth is.

i think this is going to be one of my last post on my livejournal... its been fun... but i think have become disillusioned with the whole thing... it has lost its use... and is now a hindrance to my growth... too many people have gotten hurt... too many of my thoughts have been skewed and misrepresented... this is a poor venue for my thoughts... ( Read more... )

why do some truth's only come to you when you are inebriated? i had an enlightened conversation to night, hopefully i will act on it!

~J

the wonderful thing about truth
is that there is none to be found in the universe
except the truth that you can spout out of your ass

and it was conversed at length
in the only language we knew
the movement of our bodies

things that could not be said elsewhere
many have fallen to the temptations
of misleading intentions
instead we found comfort
in our understanding
our arms embraced

when inhibitions are let loose
the meaning will become bare
~like the time we danced

i just want to run out in the rain... and let it woo me to sleep!

who would have thought? two weeks ago i had the mantra that dances, especially school dances, were shit... and now look at me ( Read more... )

im gonna be dancing tonight... with the people i love!!! tonight will be an experience never to forget...