The past couple days I've had this feeling hanging over my head. This feeling of loneliness and a need to have someone important in my life, in a romantic way of course. I haven't had this in quite a long time ( Read more... )

I try to ignore it most of the time I guess, but the question keeps popping into my head..

What the fuck is keeping me here?

On one hand, this idea seems so not me..

On the other, it seems stupid to not do it.

Hmm.

I thought I had it right once, but, from what I understand, things would've ended up fucked up.. even if I didn't do it first.. this weighs very heavily on my mind ( Read more... )

I feel weird lately, very very hard to describe.. it's like I feel like something good is gonna happen to me in the near future, something really good that would change my attitude toward life, or aleviate a lot of the stress I have or something ( Read more... )

Sadly, any aspirations I have, I learn to hide away. Only a few people know the few things that I really want, because it's honestly way too embarrassing to bear when things don't work out as I planned and everyone knows about it ( Read more... )

The way I see it, the only way you can keep from being offended when someone calls you an asshole is to embrace it. Be the asshole from the begining, then no one is ever suprised ( Read more... )

Articulation of thought is the most beautiful form of art to me.
It's the single most inspiring thing I ever come across.

The poets hold the crowns in my world.

It's amazing how much this still helps me when I'm stressed out or pissed off or confused about things. Writing it down and knowing someone else is going to read it just completely clears my head and gets me stable again. It realy is therapy.

In short, I feel so much fucking better today.

So, my mom just hit me up with an oppourtunity with her friend, possibly this year but more likely next, to start out making $40,000 a year and only work 6 months out of each year, having the rest off to do as I please. Within as little as a year, I could be making $45,000 a year and expect it to go up at about that rate for the whole time I'm ( Read more... )