Well...........................

[bigkickr]

Well I think it's safe to say that I took and gamble and lost. I made a decision based on emotion rather than rational and I feel like it's come back to bite me in the ass. As much as I know she's going to think it's her fault I want her to understand it's not. It was a decision I made based on how I felt and a gamble that I was willing to take,

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[anonymous]

I know what it's like to not be able to let someone go as stupid as you think i am for it....i understand you. i also wanted to say that i think you are an amazing writer. i look forward to every entry you write and i get hung up on every word. Hang in there Nathan, you are a good person and everything happens for a reason, maybe not a good one but at least for something. ~ADRI~

Thanks

[bigkickr]

Adri your such a sweetheart, I wish their were more people like you in the world. I feel like I was so hypocritical now for the way I treated you when you were going through everything with your ex-boyfriend. (Jason I believe his name was?) I'm at fault for not being able to simply walk away and let go, but for whatever reason I just can't do it. At times I wish it was so easy to just put everything behind me, but then i'm reminded of all the good times we had and how happy I was it makes it all that much harder.

On a personal note i'd say to you that we need to hang out more, but I don't know how you'd feel about that or what kind of situation you feel you'd be put in because of being friends with Jessie. Your fun to be around, you always have a smile on your face, and because of your relationship with Jessie your someone I feel I can talk to about everything that's going on. I'll leave that one up to you though. You know how to find me if you'd like to. Have fun at school and i'm out.

Re: Thanks

[anonymous]

Nathan, i 'm going to give you some advice that jessie gave to me during this whole Erik thing. She told me that i have to to look at what Erik is to me now vs. what he used to be to me. and she was right....i was so hung up on how much he used to care i didn't realize that he had actually stopped caring. So now i think you should take that same advice (not saying that she doesn't care because BELIEVE ME she does) but you can't live in the past. There's just too much in your future you should be looking forward to with or without her. Trust me ~ADRI~

P.S. don't worry about the jason thing, it's a lot easier to think logically when the situation doesn't include you. and you CAN talk to me.