it was a great stormy day today

[bigpoppastamm]

emotions are useless . i wish i could hate instead of love so badly . i dont know what really so say or do anymore. i hate living life without both of them . yeah whatever no good talking about it doesnt matter . i got a raise at work .75 cent go me .got the internet at my apt now . and a fat ass computer :) other than that i go have a sit down

Comments

[unc_bebe_doll]

well it sounds like you are doing well work wise, which is wonderful. it's so different now that everyone is all grown up. i completely understanding about wanting the one person you can't have and thinking about them all the time, but all i can say is keep yourself really busy and it's not as bad. ~ nicole

[bigpoppastamm]

i cant even do that i think about her even if i have something to do everything reminds me of her or somethign we did ....yeah it sucks so much ebin in love with someone who doesnt love you back

[unc_bebe_doll]

well be glad you can still talk to her. justin left his house with some clothes and no one knows where he is, not even his brothers, and he's not talking to any of his friends, so i can't talk to him or anything, and it's not knowing that's killing me. he got addicted to coke and decided to change his life, so i knew he was going to leave for a bit, but he doesn't have a phone, so it really sucks. i've gone on the best i can by keeping busy, but i still think about him way too much, and hope he comes back and is better, but who knows.

[bigpoppastamm]

well i hope things work out for you im trying to make things better between us but its hard to work over the past . things will be good for both of us in the end