well it has been super long since i updated this thing ... here goes i have been doin alot of soul searchin for a long time ...and i have come up to the answer that im a piss of fuckin shit and i dont deserve to be happy so im doin the only thing i can do and takin myself out of everyone i knows life..i hope ppl understand in the long run ...well ( Read more... )

its been a few days now and i havent talked to aimee .i miss her and isis so much i wonder what they are doin every second i dont talk to them .does that make me a little crazy ? well im goin to get my tattoo touched up today and get stuff added . well much love to the ppl that deserve it . i love you ABS AND ISS .talk to yall later

today one yr ago i was at the beach with aimee and isis we were walkin up and down the strip goin in and out of stores .lol good times. i was suppose to see her and isis today but she had to stay home and do laundry .so yeah i wont see her or the kid for over a week .i hope she gets to see her old friends and what not when she is up there . yeah ( Read more... )

this week has been hard on me i lost my grandpa last tuesday .so i have been going through alot but i had aimee by my side the whole time so it was alot better than it coulda been . aimee ,isis and i spent the weekend together . it was one of the happiest times i have had in a long time . i love them so .but then aimees grandpa dies yesterday the ( Read more... )

emotions are useless . i wish i could hate instead of love so badly . i dont know what really so say or do anymore. i hate living life without both of them . yeah whatever no good talking about it doesnt matter . i got a raise at work .75 cent go me .got the internet at my apt now . and a fat ass computer :) other than that i go have a sit down ( Read more... )

you ever met that one person that you cant get out of your head? that person you think about dream about wish you could just touch and be close to 24 hours a day . having that feelings is a curse and a blessing at the same time . i know i could never have her back no matter how hard i try .but i can never give up trying .i have never been more in ( Read more... )

well yeah i been working alot latlely it sucks but its ok i guess just for the money .. i hope i get to see isis this weekend i miss her greatly . i found that shining star .... well im off here i love you aimee and isis .

i had a long talk wth aimee last night without fighting with her we talked about everything i think she is starting to see that i really do love her or atleast see that im not goin away .i love her and isis more than anything .so im doin my best to do everything i need to d o.i come on here to talk about aimee and isis thats all i talk about thats ( Read more... )

well im goin back home today been away for a few days .... i grow more in love every day ...AIMEE SCHLUSSL AND ISIS STAMM I LOVE YOU BOTH SO VERY MUCH ....good bye thats all i had to say

isis just turned 2 she is gettin so big i had a lot of fun at her birthday party with every one i loved seeing aimee ..im kinda glad she has moved on from me im glad to see her happy ill always love her but i know ill never get her back it sucks but life is life and it sucks real bad. i love them both very much and want the world for them if i ( Read more... )