I really, REALLY want to just say fuck it and give up right now. My head feels like its inside a god damn vice. I seriously think Im having a nervous breakdown.

The sad thoughts, the long faces, the anger at everything and nothing for no good reason... I feel depression grabbing hold once again, and its pulling me down fast. The stress in my life has built up around me like a well I cant get out of, and as I look up it grows deeper still. A knot slowly works its way into my stomach and throat as I get the ( Read more... )

I feel overwhelmingly bad today. Registration at UCF on Friday was an 8 hour long nightmare, and Saturday and Sunday were little more than reminders of why I have so little friends. I dont think Iv ever been this stressed out in my entire life. I feel like Im being shadowed by a giant raincloud... I cant stand this feeling. Someone buy me a ( Read more... )

O' Love, thy name is Darkest Hour. *Head explodes, falls in love, and craps his pants simultaneously*

Good things went down this weekend. Sat on my ass and watched television all day Friday. Yeah I know, it was amazing. Anyway then Saturday rolls around and Im still sitting around watching T.V... until about 9 PM. At that time I proceeded to drive over to my sisters house and hang out with her until midnight when JJ got off work. Then I headed over ( Read more... )

So pretty good news to report as of lately. I'v been accepted to UCF for Spring 2006 which is awesome, and I just found out the car my grandpa bought for me for when I move in with him. Black 2002 Ford Ranger. Awesome. Besides that really good news, I also found out some good news about the stupid incident I got myself involved in. I may be able to ( Read more... )

Today has been a remarkable day. I did something very stupid today and Im not proud of it. But in a way, Im glad for it because I feel like something good has broken through in my life because of it. I learned a lot today, especially from my dad.. who up until today had very little influence in my life. I was reminded that ya know.. people arnt ( Read more... )

Until now, Iv never really thought about this. Maybe I am as selfish as everyone seems to think i am. But frankly, unless you are among a select group of people... i just dont like people. I cant put up with people's bullshit, or rather I dont want to. Maybe that means I dont care about anyone but myself? Maybe it really does ( Read more... )

i found something interesting out the other day. isn't it funny how someone can accuse you of not caring about them, and then you come to find out they hooked up with their best friends ex-boyfriend not a month after you had broken up? I think it is. A lyric from Dream Theater comes to mind ( Read more... )

so i ran out of meds on tuesday, and i am already feeling like shit. I hate this.

I hung out with crystal for a while tonight, which was fun besides all the bickering about her being paranoid. lol and met these two obnoxious girls outside the mall while being bored.

Bah. i guess ill go to sleep or something.