My friend sent me this and I thought it was fun to fill out....Enjoy ( Read more... )

Im am so tired of people fucking with my head and heart. I feel like I am in an endless cycle of abuse. I can not win. I try to stay away, and they find a way to force me to be closer. I try not to love, and they resent me for it. I do love, and they dont love me anymore. I try to heal, and they find a way to tear the wound open again. I keep on ( Read more... )

Words that decribe me as of this very moment...

happy
sad
amused
annoyed
hopeful
hopeless
tired
energized
confused
numb
tingly
anxious
calm
confident
insecure

....and you all wonder why I am crazy all the time...

Oh and for the record I am posting some of my poetry on poetry.com....I only have one now, but there will be more

This weekend was bizarre and a bunch of fun. Yes, I did get an MIP on Saturday, but oh well at least I was trashed right? I just look at it as I should consider my self as a stealthy lil drinker, and I guess I'm lucky. I've been drinking since I was about 15 or 16, wow that makes me sound like an alcoholic, and it took untill 10 months before my ( Read more... )

These last few weeks have been filled with insatiable pain to say the least, but I think the times they are a changin. This last few days I have taken the time to reconnect with the girl I lost so long ago, me. I feel like my head is cleared and my mind is finally free of all the inner turmoil and noise...how peaceful silence can be ( Read more... )

New Start, New journal