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[bikinibabe25]

the past 6 months have been completely numbing...if you think im actually happy, boy have i been fooling you. i feel so dead inside you cant even know. my father is killing me slowly, but killing me all the same with the things he does. having to pack up all your mothers things into a box who died 4 years ago in 8 days...some rememberance.

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[xoxanamariaxox]

Marie, please dont feel so sad. Your dad is just trying to make life normal again. He isn't trying to hurt you, he is just hurt himself and thinks this is the best way. If it hurts you to put the things away tell him no. He cant forse you to do something that makes you this upset. Just know that God has a plan for everyone and he is making you stronger by doing this. Just belive and know that your mother is always by your side and she will always be proud of you love you and support you. Your a gorgeous and wonderful girl. Be proud of yourself

[bikinibabe25]

i dont think making life normal again requires him to totally disregard the fact that he still has a family he needs to take care of and spend time with. ive told him its crap hes doing this with her stuff, but if i dont save stuff then hes just gonna throw it all away. ive told him how upset and he sees it but he just doesnt care. he basically laughed at me when i told him iw anted to go see someone to talk to, i was home not even 20 min today and im already crying....i cant do any of this anymore, its too much, and its finally taking its toll on me that all i do is cry

[xoxanamariaxox]

Well its a horrible thing that you have to go threw and if you have to cry its normal. and I am sure your school has counselors that you can talk to for free if your dad wont pay for one which is obserd on his part. Just do what makes you happy and if saving her stuff makes you happy then do it, if your dad doesn' get it then ignore him because guys have a tendency to think that having emotions is bad. Jus do what makes you happy. You've always been a smart and strong girl. Dont let anything tear you down. This will make you stronger. Love you!

[xoxanamariaxox]

yeah the thing thats best for me is to let go and forget him. thanx ana! i miss you girl, please let me know if your ever up here again coz id love to see you <3 love you too!