Some days I just need you, Lord. I need to crawl into your arms and have you tell me everything's going to be alright. I see your creation all around me, and yet I don't stop and notice. I don't pause, even once, to take in the simple beauty of the red tulips and yellow daffodils against a backdrop of green grass and blue sky. I need you to stop me ( Read more... )

At least that's the way it feels right now. I've never been this content with every aspect of my life. i'm right with God, school is going well, my friends are AMAZING, and I have a wonderful boyfriend, who love God with all of his heart. Every day I continue to be amazed and left speechless by the things he tells me or what he does. Yesterday we ( Read more... )

You're probably going to be surprised at this one--a happy entry! Hehe. The past week has been absolutely amazing. God, you are wonderful, and I wonder now why I haven't turned to you more often in the past. I don't even know if I can talk about everything that has happened, but it has changed my life, and my attitude toward everything. First of ( Read more... )

Why is it that I realize things like this too late? I don't even know how to feel right now. Someone tell me what to do, because I'm lost. I opened up a vault of pain I didn't know existed, and now I am almost consumed by it once more. Just when I think I'm alright something happens to make me bleed. It. Won't. Stop. I feel so helpless, used, ( Read more... )

And there is no cable barrier or desolute fence to keep me from tumbling into the terrifying unknown ( Read more... )

"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face ( Read more... )

The Jesse thing again. Honestly, aren't they done with that yet? And now with Tim. Why do they think I have to go out with someone at the store? I'm perfectly capable of finding my own boyfriend thank you. well, maybe. Capable? hm. still hasn't happened though. But honestly, I need to be content to be single. Besides...there's no guilt in looking, ( Read more... )

hm. Usually writing comes easy for me, but apparently tonight it won't. Maybe it's because I haven't written in a while. Work is - frustrating, tiring, but good too. How is it that I can love and hate something this much? Sure I love the work, but I'm constantly being told I should make more for what I do, or I don't work enough. I'm exhausted when ( Read more... )

hm. Back to work for me. Good? Yes, I suppose. It's pretty nice to be home, but I'm definitely not used to having people need me to do things, or expect me to do things. I just want time alone, but I'm pretty sure someone's going to walk in on me at any moment and ask why I'm not helping. I suppose that means I should be helping. We're getting ( Read more... )

to be home :). It's weird, but really good I think. My cat has taken over my pillow, and the dog follows me everywhere I go, sure signs I've come to the right place ;). Aside from my stupidity that was leaving my phone in Indiana, I'm doing really good. Looking forward to starting work on thursday or friday, which'll be really nice...expecially ( Read more... )