I haven't posted in here for ages. I don't remember my last entry. Well I could look back and I'm sure many of you have heard, I haven't posted in here for ages. LoL I know, I just repeated myself. So what has been up with myself anyway? Well I'm in the second semester of my college year. I passed last semester with flying colors, which I'm quite ( Read more... )

The temperatures have dropped dramatically within the past few days. There has been rain a little, snow too, and LOTS of gusty winds that can throw a person over. Gosh, it's just so cold! My room is freezing and my mom is irritated by the heater so she leaves it off. Thanks mother for freezing me to death. Every morning I don't want to get out of ( Read more... )

When do you know that you've hit rock bottom?

I know that I'm too young to feel that way. Maybe it's the pressure I've been under lately. For the past couple of months I've been pretty terrible. My best friend is gone to college and without her it's hard to function. I can't have fun like I used to. Not even with my other friends. Other friends. ( Read more... )

It's been one month today since my father passed away. The days aren't alike as today it's very... gloomy. The rain that patters against my window, the silence, and the stillness. It's still hard to believe that he's left the family. That he's really gone from us to a better world. Is it wrong of me to still be in shock? To still hurt and wish that ( Read more... )

How do I describe what I've gone through this whole week? It's been quite interesting since I've started college. The classes overall are fantastic. I may bitch about the homework, but it's just like high school all over again. And I know that I've continued to remind you all that college has just started and that I'm enjoying it, or I'm not. But ( Read more... )

So I don't know if any of you have noticed, those on my msn list, mainly Trio's members, that I have been missing for quite some time. And the thing is, I won't be on so often except for weekends or if I'm visiting home or a friend during the week. My computer can't connect to the internet in my dorm, so I have to wait until I get my new laptop to ( Read more... )

When you think of it, waiting is the hardest part in death. And today seemed to flow on by quickly. I took Eva to school in the morning, my mom, uncle, and aunt left to see my dad. I went back to sleep beside my cousin and my Grandma was up around the house. In the morning we made a list of what to shop for while my mom, uncle, and aunt were ( Read more... )

I've accepted that my father will pass away anytime soon. It's amazing how he has lasted this long, especially when the last two days everything went down hill. My aunt and uncle made it in this morning to see him. And it was just so terrible. He was put on a kidney dialysis, though he didn't want it. The nurses are so inconsiderate and so are the ( Read more... )

Life in general isn't fair when the one you love isn't going to make it. And you pray and hope that he gets better every day. That the doctor's would find some kind of miracle to keep him living a long life. But when it's short lived, you know there's no chance of that miracle anymore. And you break down crying, knowing you're losing the best ( Read more... )

You know, I spent a lot of my time today out with my friend Megan. We went out for dinner at Mongolian Barbeque, fantastic place, then to the Outlet Mall. We talk about topics, mainly about future trips, plans, and all that stuff. And  then I spend a few hours with Kat and Jen. Jen at first, then Kat joined later on. My sister was there. Jen fell ( Read more... )