i'm falling in love again ( Read more... )

this is 2 steps back ( Read more... )

"dreamed of you last night. we were being chased by seals out of arctic basement ( Read more... )

it's 4:30 and it's very dark ( Read more... )

he resents me because i don't have a real job ( Read more... )

 there is something i have been without for a long time and i realize now how important it is to me but this realization is both insightful and distressing because i don't feel that i can hold on to this alone nor can i hold on to it at all in any great capacity in general.  but it fills me up now and it fills me with a sincere and potent happiness ( Read more... )

 i'm stuck.
here.
being unsatisfied with everything.  
nothing is working for me. 
i just 'want'. 
this is anxiety.  this is waiting for the end of the world and then dealing with it.
and not being sure if i can deal with it.
but still waiting anyways.

 i'm pretty sure i have no idea how to have a conversation.
when we start talking about the weather... things have gone horribly wrong, and i'm pretty sure it's my fault.
or maybe.  i just don't know how to flirt anymore.  it's been too goddamn long.  because one minute it's 'i bet you're all sexy and bronzed from your trip to spain' and the next ( Read more... )

that place reminds me of  true love and broken hearts
of course it's a tim hortons.

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different note:  how am i keeping?
because that concerns you how?
i thought i would (once again) have to be the one to send some inane little comment to you in order for us to ever communicate again
you never cease to surprise and annoy me

halloween in stratford anyone?

 you have a dog
or at least
there is a dog (or was a dog at some point)
therefore:
you have a girlfriend?
everything is connected. dog.  girlfriend.  you.  
besides.
you're more of a fish kind of guy.

i'm thinking i should stop waiting for you to go home now.

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also:  i have no friends.  in this life or the second.  i'm not sure why i thought starting over ( Read more... )