Blew it. I completely screwed up. The trip was fine, the end of the trip was not--- and that is my fault. Travelling for 21hours and my luggage lost. EWR? JFK? No one knew and there were no representatives available. Anyone would be annoyed but of course because it's me, I couldn't control it. Lashing out at your best friend in the middle of ( Read more... )

Do you know how hard it was for me to see you today? It was a little awkward for me, although I tried not to be awkward (I'm sure I was). I don't want to open up to you, I don't want to get hurt. I'm still hurting from a month ago. It's a killer for me, to know that we'll never hang out like we used to. Or even half as much or whatever. I may see ( Read more... )

My life is in complete chaos right now. Finding a place to live so I can move out of my parents house is really stressful. And on top of that, I'm having all sorts of friends issues ( Read more... )

I was thinking a lot last night about NYC. Didn't have any plans for today until a friend asked if I wanted to do a NYE run with her at 11:15p in Brooklyn. Of course I said yes. Such a different way to bring in the new year... and I love running. Anyway, I was thinking about how I, as many other east coast folks, take NYC for granted. I've ( Read more... )

I stopped by Nikki's work last night to give her her Christmas present. All I wanted to do, was give her her present and say hello. But I walked out of CVS feeling like complete shit, on Christmas. I still feel miserable. We were talking about all kinds of different things and she brought up Brazil. She doesn't know if she wants to go since ( Read more... )

I wish I could just tell you I'm sorry. The other night you asked me what was wrong and I should have never told you. You asked twice though and I didn't want to lie. So I told you why I was upset and I feel like it pissed you off. I really didn't mean to do that tho. It was hurtful that I didn't know you were really looking at houses (like more ( Read more... )

Another argument. I know I started this one. This one is kinda tough for me, more than the others. I feel like it’s a last straw type deal. I guess I really have to back off on complaining about things that bother me about our friendship. To me, if I don’t let you know what’s wrong, or things that bother me, how are things supposed to get ( Read more... )

Last Tuesday, October 1, Nikki and I went to NYC for dinner and a show. For dinner we went to Peter Lugar in Brooklyn. Definitely the best steak I've had so far and I’ll be surprised if I do have a better. Also, Peter Lugar Steak Sauce is amazingly good. It has a unique flavor but I loved it ( Read more... )

I've always known that I love you. I'm just now realizing that I Love You. If I only had the guts to tell you face to face. I don't because I know you don't feel the same way. And if you ever did, it's probably too late. But then there is that ever so slim chance that it works out in my favor. No, too much at risk.

Am I allowed to still be sad? I am. I guess I feel like our frienship is falling apart and it makes my heart ache. How effing sappy. I would never actually say that aloud ( Read more... )