nothing's going right, and i realise that i'm not even using this service for what it's meant for. i don't really write anything in here, i post random words thrown together in an order that might or might not make them rhyme. to all my friends i'm probably dead, and for some reason i'm feeling even more helpless than before. i don't even know what ( Read more... )

i've just been sitting thinking drinking things that lack the potency i love ( Read more... )

i saw a boy who ate the candle and glowed from inside like a lamp, the dilusion's dead, buried deep within my head. the crown of thorns rests upon her head, and i drown in that which is sacred to all, but of my own free will.

living has never been so hard. moving through the day has never been such an opopanax. i don't know what will happen next. the events that lead on to the next clue just scare me and i sink further and further into this delirium. nothing makes sense. nothing's ever been so easy. the flow is disturbed, the world has suddenly moved on, and i'm left ( Read more... )

i don't know how i'm going to sleep tonight. all of the sudden my situation is very real, and i don't have anything to take my mind off of my mind. i need a cigarette, and i feel like i'm going to cry. i just want to cry. i'm so royally fucked over. i should've listened to everyone. i was abusing something, and i'm in trouble. i've fucked fucked ( Read more... )

as of midnight this morning i was arrested. i am being charged with posession of marijuana, posession of paraphernalia, and minor in posession of alchohol. my friend melissa and i were driving back to her house to retire for the night and get some rest for work in the morning, when she ran a red light at the intersection at glassford and sunset. we ( Read more... )

i'm staring out in into the vaccuum again, from the backporch of my mind. the only thing that's alive, i'm all there is. and i start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw, my eyes have turned red as stop lights, you seem ready to walk, you know i'll call you eventually, when i wanna talk, till then you're invisible, cuz there's this switch ( Read more... )

when my words add to numbers, you'd never expect, the sunrise of insults, are barred to my death, with a note to a melody, pinned to my corpse, reads: "a friendship is never that bad ( Read more... )