Well i must say I hate my life right now. Why all i want to know is why do people commit suicide. Well if you dont already know one of my great friends died tues March 1st. In my head right now I cant think of anything i wasnt more than an explanation. I just want to know why. I cant help but think this isnt real. Like i should wake up and ( Read more... )

Well Dang its been a while again not sure what is exactly goin on in my life right now. Except i went to Cedar Rapidds this weeked to look at the college and i love it there. Except i have to be there with like my whole family i swear my brother and aunt and cousin are there, but it is ok i got them if i need them. Well i must say this weekend was ( Read more... )

Inspired by him, I write this ( Read more... )

Well what can i say it is sat night at 9:30 and im sitting at home. Im sure those of you who know me as a fun person who hates her home and always wants to get out ask why! Or well i guess maybe you dont. Honestly i dont know lately i havent done much of anything i was going to go to the concert tonight in sioux city then my aunt called and asked ( Read more... )

well it has been a long damn time since i have updated my lj. There really isnt to much different in my life. Except i saw my goo friend greg last night who was in an accident he was one of the worst guys in it. It was awesome to see him out of the hospital he looked great. Although he didnt recognize me because of the brain damage but we are ( Read more... )

Well I havent updated in a while basically because the confusion in my head is at the peak of what i have ever had. Im not exactly sure what to think honestly im really quite sick of thinking about everything right now i dont want to anymore i wish i could jus go one day with out having to think at all it would be great, but unfortunately i think ( Read more... )

Well I havent updated in what seems like eternity but it has actually only been a little over a week. Although in this one week my life has changed so much it seems it should have been eternity. Im sure all of you know chris and i are seperated right now. The reason for this is I need alot of space lately i get this feeling of only wanting to be ( Read more... )

Well today was one of the hardest day i have had on a long while i found out that my exboyfriend Kyle Diede along with 3 of mt other friends were in a car accident last night. One died the other 3 are stil in a coma. Not exactly sure how to take this news in. Ive been thinking about it for a long time now and im still not sure what to do. I tried ( Read more... )

well tonight was snoball...considering it was the last one i will go to it wasnt al that much fun actually it seemed there waas nobody there...but all in all i had a good night mostly because i spent it with chris...we went out to eat at applebees it was good...we went to the dance that was ok...then we went to matt gabels house and it was effing ( Read more... )

Well im updating kinda early today because i have alot of things on my mind and i dont feel i have relly anyone to talk to right now. Today was a really weird day it was kinda blah not exactly sure what to think of it exactly. The whole day i was kinda getting this feeling that nobody cares and i mean nobody. It seems wahtever i did i was not ( Read more... )