Jump through the hoops, let them bleed you away. The fire burns inside yet the life on the outside is gone... its extinguished into nothingness... its ripped and torn, bleeds on command, splits apart to let you inside. I think it knows that it wants to die... it wants to disappear yet no one will let it... not even you ( Read more... )

does anyone ever wonder what really qualifies someone as a friend. Does it mean they don't fuck you over, hurt you, screw you? No lowballs no high flies.... what does it mean ( Read more... )

'love, a fleeting age replaced by rage through life into the dark age. A new beginning to open up where money became love with the power to corrupt, power only gained with humanity given up. Time a distant feeling ticking away, where you can ignore the constantly changing age. Trying to live your life on the outside of a blown hole in the side of ( Read more... )

moved to rochester. live with friends. done...

according to lj i havn't posted in 16 weeks... my life is the same, i have no unrelented feelings or thoughts, i think i just got a bit better is all...

that is the post

~dane

I sit here just wanting to cry... the feeling just creeping in to this ideal that I've created.... my life, everything in it... will be gone soon... and not much is going to remain ( Read more... )

I get left out of life sometimes... the wicked rhymes beneath my mind seem to spin into words of erupting concussion... of terrible admission within my vision... I never see what I can't be but dream it up with world tight shut... I never follow through the ideal wallows of time in despair and death will never be what I saw inside the hall inside ( Read more... )

I don't write in this very often anymore... its like a huge part of what used to be my life has just dissipated to nothingness.... I think I just woke up... or fell asleep maybe... there is a nightmare of my life that consists to death... I wish I would die, or wake up... or sleep... or just disappear ( Read more... )

I erased my contact list in my phone... need to reach me call me so I know...

or just comment for the number...

~Whatever~
~Dane

so anyways I've been taking anti-depressants for about 3 weeks now... I know I hate medication but honestly I couldn't care less now... its just to survive me until i finally decide to get into the marines and get off my probation... I figure it will only last a little while ( Read more... )