Hi all, an update is found necessary i do believe.  Well being back at school makes my mom like me more.  She not only wants to talk to me but she calls.  Crazy, and she gives me money, ahhh i love it.  I missed school, i missed being busy, i missed my room, i missed being kinda on my own.  Yet now that i'm here i miss some things at home, i miss ( Read more... )

So I am finding today pointless.  I was excited that my sister is coming, but she is not coming for me, but for ryan.  He who she cheated on her boyfriend with.... Dont get me wrong i like ryan but i love how she doesnt have enough time to see me, to come to visit me, to see me on my damn birthday but yeah she can come see ryan.  thanks alot rachel ( Read more... )

its my birthday, happy birthday to me!  Honestly i'm a bit better since yesterday.  I opened presents... well there was no wrapping paper so i just pulled it out of a bag, but nice none the less.  :)  i got a big cookie cake, i have not a clue how we are going to finish it.  My mom called and woke me up to say happy birthday, at least she called ( Read more... )

So, here is another day.  Another night spent and nothing acheived.  I sometimes get to the point i want to give up and go home.  i'm not happy here anymore.  so much hurt so many people can put other people through is crazy.  i dont even know what to do anymore.  i get around some people and i dont feel like i can be myself, and others i know i ( Read more... )

So I  haven't updated in a long time.  A really long time, so I figured i might as well, I'm not in the best of moods anyways.  The past few days haven't been to good, most of it has nothing to do with the people around me, most of it is just me.  I miss home.  I miss my mom, I never thought i would but i do.  I miss my sister, she's getting ( Read more... )

Is is possible to be jealous of someone you dont even like?  prolly.   is it possible to love without being loved in return?  can i keep playing this game when sometimes it just rips me apart?  i was with matt last night for a little bit and i asked him a question and with his answer it became so... true and in a way hurtful that it really got me ( Read more... )

hey to one and all... i'm at surf city... topsail beach n.c. its so nice outside... i'm suntanned and i'm happy.. minus i'm missing some of you. em.. i've called you like twice and you havent answered! call me back! sorry rather random. i get back in a few days and i'm leaving in a month. cleveland here i come!

I was sitting here so i deceided to update.  No one uses this anymore. no emily no joey.. noone.  I am in an okay mood today... I have seen matt a few times and that is making me happy.  I leave for a week vacation on friday, well its more than a week but i leave on friday and matt is going somewhere else and its going to be weird not talking to ( Read more... )

So have I had a good story?  Have i done what i should have?  I dont know maybe i just think to damn much, i mean how many people think about things like this?

I have heard this song a few times... and if i knew i was going to die soon would i do anything different?

He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came ( Read more... )

So i had the graduation party..... made some money...which my mom took hold of, hmm... i'm going to get a stereo for my car. and a computer, i did make quite a bit of money.  so i'm dissappointed a few people did show to my party, but those that did kick ass.  Kylee and josh came and that was super nice since they live way far away.  i was talking ( Read more... )