I am honestly trying to work over my major problems ( Read more... )

What the hell is my fucking problem? Why the fuck do I feel this way? I fucking want to take my head and smash it on a fucking cinderblock until my ugly face is a fucking bloody mess and I pass out from the fucking pain. Because that would hurt a hell of a lot less than being the stupid and fucking unworthy bastard that I am ( Read more... )

I have so fucking much I need to get out of my system that there is no possible way I can get any of it out. I need to rant so fucking badly but I cannot. I am in a lot of pain and nothing is helping. I am getting migranes, feeling like throwing up, and there is not a soul I can tell everything to. I am utterly incapable of expressing myself ( Read more... )

hi. I decided to lock the last entry. kthxbye.

I AM ANGRIER THAN I HAVE BEEN IN FUCKING MONTHS

I HATE THIS DRAMA SHIT

school tomorrow. Oh boy. Math first period. man am I looking foward to that. Today I threw out unneeded college mail that was laying around. it filled up 2 bags and I swear it weighed like 40 pounds. I also watched unhealthy amounts of anime, whined, had a phone conversation or two, and had a chance to say hi to joe again. *yawn* I still don ( Read more... )

I can't beleive I am going to graduate this year ( Read more... )

To be honest I am still very unsure of myself and I am unsure what is going on with my heart.  I am also still considering leaving livejournal.  All I seem to do is come on here and whine.

I have a new friend.  she may prove to be a big part of me feeling better.

Lately I have been keeping myself busy with my chrsitmas gifts mostly.  I have put ( Read more... )

Love is messy and it is causing me pain. But without love I am nothing ( Read more... )

empty and numb.

and I sort of know why

but I sort of don't, too.

why am I in such odd shape today? I can't say I am doing great, but I can't say I'm doing badly ether

my heart is confused

I will be better in a few days